[pink_elephant]

so about two years ago i was anorexic. it wasnt for that long. after little over a month one of my friends finally got through to me to get me to start eating again. i still struggle with not wanting to eat everyday though which i hate. i have to force myself to eat everyday and i started going back to my old habbits a few weeks ago because i was so stressed and just lost it. in my eyes im fat even though everyone tells me im not, they always say im too skinny. im 5'4" and i weigh about 107ish pounds. is that underwieght or is that good? i've been to the doctors alot lately because i have alot of health problems and ive been really sick but whenever i go they never say anything about my weight so i never know if im under or anything... please someone help. i want to stop having to force myself to eat. does anyone have any advice for me?

welcome to PC....

The battle is hard... I know... was anoerxic for 1.5 years... and now have a binge/purge eating disorder.

How about thinking of making a doctors appointment to talk specifically talk about your weight/height .. BMI.. ratio? I have done that... don't wait for the doctors to "say" something - maybe the dr is focused on the issue that you went to him for.. so is busy and isn't noticing your weight... that happens with my blood pressure - it has sunk very low of recent....and with all of other issues... my dr... hasn't noticed... and.. so I will need to contact her.

It is "just my opinion"... relying on "your eyes" or someone elses "eyes" to determine whether you are a heathy weight doesn't work... especially when you have an active eating disorder... or are a recovered from an eating disorder.. I think our "eyes" deceive us... so a dr or perhaps a dietcian would be a good route to go.... they would be able to take in your bone structure.. age.. and such...

Having to force yourself to eat.. I am not sure.. what you mean by that...

Did you mean if you were a healthy weight now you would eat differently than if 107 was underweight?

[pink_elephant]

i ment when i said that i have to force myself to eat is that i never really want to eat but im trying really hard not to go back to my old habbits so i have to make myself eat even if i dont want to.

[Labyssum]

I hope you don't fall back into your old habits...
I don't have much advice. Just hang in there and stay strong.

I know this struggle well... I wish I had wise words... but I am going thru the same thing myself...

I force myself to eat... because I do not want to get sick... that is worth the effort.. that it takes to eat...