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I reached my goal to lose the 10 pounds I gained--in just 48 hours. My weight is still good. Slightly on the low side, maybe, but okay. I've never had doctor complaints at this weight but once. I'm only about 10 pounds under what the charts say I should be. Actually, I'm about 11 pounds under, since my last weight this morning was 119. I'm kind of scared about my next T appointment. I don't know if I want to stop losing weight here. I feel like I should allow myself to lose just a few more pounds, maybe 5 more. But would I stop there? I don't want to be so thin as I was before that my bones actually poked me inside causing so much pain, and all the stares and comments, and anxiety I had. I don't want to have a heart attack or other major health issues. I already have arthritis, isn't that enough? I love my bad habits. But they do scare me.

Why do you need to lose weight? Of course im not telling you to tell us, but sometimes asking myself that question helps me realize what im doing. HUGS

[itsjustme111]

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you know what can happen; right?? Listen to what u have said to me. Your putting urself at risk for other complications. I ask u the same thing; why do u feel u need to lose this weight?? You said u are already underweight. Please think about this, get some help. Please be honest with ur t. We dont want to see u get really ill; or worse. Thinking of u.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))); lots and lots of them.

justy

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My T knows already. I've had a harder time with the PTSD since being at my ex's for too long a week ago. I had so many words going through my mind still with that and so many other things. I did confess my 10 pounds in 2 days, and that I blew more of my money on pills to ensure it would be done quickly. Still got a week and a half till the appointment.

[itsjustme111]

Hey inky, I wanted to say I know its not that easy. I dont want to sound like I am lecturing u. I am the last one that has a right to do that; lol. I am worried about u.
This is such a hard thing to deal with, I feel for u!!!! Just be careful, please. I sent u a pm.

Thoughts are with u;

justy