[DazedandConfused]

I was reading the posts here and noticed one where someone said they wish more people would post here. I have had probs with Bulemia for the past 17 years. Started when I was 16. I always fight the urges to throw up after binging, or feeling as if I have binged. I feel so many times that I have beat Bulemia forever only to have it come back with a vengence and claim me for awhile more. My way of dealing with it is to tell my husband (the person I trust most in the world) when I feel the strong urges coming on, which happened last night. He is very understanding and helps me talk myself out of it. I know how hard it is on my body and teeth, etc. Been doing pretty well for awhile now. Proud of myself. Just thought I would throw myself into the mix here. It helps to talk about it and I seem to not go back into the cycle if I do.

[Genevieve]

A lot of things that live in the darkness cannot survive in the light. I think that's how eating disorders grow so powerful -- we keep them so secret. I have found that 'talking' about it can help me, but so far, have only been able to type it via email and boards like this, or to tell friends who live too far away to do anything about it.

Two weeks ago, I finally said it out loud to both my pdoc and my therapist, though. And my husband kinda knows, although he has no clue how to handle it. He knows that I'm too thin, and that I don't eat enough, and he's heard out marriage counselor say it's anorexia, and he knows that I've been through anorexic periods in the past. He doesn't really know anything beyond that, though, and he seems to be avoiding finding anything more out about it. (Denial is a river running through our living room. Makes everything a bit damp.)

All of that is really just to say it's nice to have another new kid on the block here. No advice from me, beyond saying I think you're right that expressing it can help, so keep on visiting.

[DazedandConfused]

Interesting way to put it. I like it because it rings true. My hubby doesn't know how to handle it either. Just to help support me not doing it. Haven't had the courage to talk to my doctor about it. When it gets really bad I am tempted to. It has calmed down for now, but was terrible last month. I am always working on it.