[jujubean22]

wow i finally told my best friend. she guessed it and i said yes.
i was shaking and crying for about an hour after i told her and then i cried a little later. although it may seem scary, it was but now i feel so much better. im going to school now hopefully it wont be awkward when i see her. hopefully she can help me.

if any one out there is trying to tell someone, just do it, i was scared to for a long time but now i feel great.

[x_BabyG_x]

((((((jujubean))))))

Well done hun, that must have taken alot

babyg xXx

[jujubean22]

thanks. yea it did. i feel great today. although i havent eaten anything today, i feel fine. im proud of myself. it was funny i was crying for a really long time and i looked in a mirror and my face was covered in mascara, i kinda scared myself haha.

[Christina86]

I'm glad things worked out.

[jujubean22]

pfff. i dont even kno my emotions right now. so this is what happened.
Wednesday i told my friend about my ed.
Thursday comes and passes and i was feeling good about telling her.
Friday during school i was given a note to go to the counselors and i knew what it would be about. So apparently my friend had gone in on thursday and talked to some lady about it for like 2 hours. anyway my counselor who i do not feel comfortable with was asking me all these questions and he was like "a staff member is been concerned because you have been losing weigh" and i just denied everything he asked me and was like is your home life ok and everything. i just lied to him. So after i went out of his office during a passing period and i saw her so i went up to her and waited til she was alone and i asked her if she told the counselors. she lied and said no. so i texted her during the next class i was in while she was at lunch. she then told me she did talk to a counselor about it and said she lied cuz she didnt want me to get mad and hate her. pffff. she said she did it cuz she said i asked for help and she got me some. i told her because i wanted her help not my gross counselors. uhhhh. now shes being weird and i said i kinda wanna talk about it in person and shes like well sorry this weekend im busy except i was texting her and tonight shes doing nothing. i feel like i shouldnt have told her now. today i ate pretty normal food cuz yesterday i told her i was going to and im gonna get better. but this whole situation makes me not want to eat again. i just told her shes done her part and i dont need her help anymore cuz it was obviously wasnt interesting to her. so now im back to having no one. i feel like im gonna spiral down again. i just feel hurt that she cant even make time to talk to onea her best friends in this situation. maybe im not a priority but idk what the meaning of a best friend is to her. cuz if my best friend told me i would be at her house right away and if she needed my help i would drop all my plans and damn straight help her. is this an untrue friend or do you just think she is confused?

i basically just texted her right now and called her out. hopefully everything goes well.