[SelfHarmLove]

I just ate and it was normal eating i promised i wouldn't and i promised if i did i wouldn't purge but i did both, only my family is here so i could only purge a tiny bit it won't make a difference, i feel horrible after i purged that little bit i looked in the mirror and my face, to me, looked fatter then before, it's probably because of the failure i feel now for eating like that, chicken carne asada, rice, beans and poppers, it's too much! What's more is of course i don't know the calorie content of any of the things i put down my throat and i'm betting it's sky high in calories and fat. I don't know what to do now my new 'plan' is to not eat anything for three days, but i'm trying to stop this, it hasn't been long at all since i started but it's already taking hold and i'm freaking out.

[Kiya]

((((((((((SHL))))))))
out here supporting you - wish there were something i could say =(

[luckyyouxx]

don't put yourself down for eating a whole meal, congradulate yourself! instead of worrying about the calories, give yourself a break for once, you're body is thanking you for eating, as it needs the nutrition to live.

not eating for 3 days isnt going to help you. if your scared of eating as much as you did, just eat small amounts every once and a while. this keeps your energy up and puts you in a better mood. eat some grapes or something, they are low in calories and mostly water so it will fill you up.

[SelfHarmLove]

I didn't want to make a whole new thread but need to vent kind of. I over exerted myself exercising a few days ago and have huge pain in my arms, it's taken a huge toll on my body, especially since i haven't been eating, it's harder for my muscles to heal, my body is also trying to heal a bad sunburn. I've felt nauseous and dizzy and like i'm going to faint. It's also taken a huge toll on me emotionally, i had a few breakdowns today and almost had a couple panick attacks. Now i control even less in my life, i ate some crackers today, i know that's too little, but i'm proud i was atleast able to do that, i can't eat a real meal, not yet. I also slept basically all day and that's all i want to do so i don't have to deal with the pain, you can't imagine how badly it hurts, i have a feeling it's more then just a muscle strain that will go away. I'm scared i'll be feeling like this for a long time. I also freaked out when my mom started talking about when i went out to eat with my dad and had a huge burger in my mind i was just like shut up! She kept talking about food it was really annoying. Anyway theres my rant for today lol. I hope somebody can respond with some helpful advice or respond at all, things are not good.

[Alaizabel]

I'm in the same boat. I promised myself that I wouldn't eat for three days too but I'm anemic and I got so dizzy that I just ate a Lean Pocket. I'm glad it was something low in fat that I ate. 7 grams is more than I usually eat in a day but it was better than anything else we have in the house.

[SelfHarmLove]

Today and yesterday i overate and purged, i'm so angry at myself but i just can't stop.

[wishfulmuscle]

I know the feeling. I did the same yesterday. But i know today is another day, and I'll start going down that aweful path of non-stop B/P so i've gotta try extra hard not to mess today up.

Someone once told me if you can get over that 3 day mark, you will have an easier time to recovery.. i havent made it 3 days in a row yet, but im still hoping!

[SelfHarmLove]

I know either way isn't healthy but i keep eating and purging but i want to keep starving like i did before, i haven't been able to go one day starving for a couple days and i'm freaking out, i'd just so much rather not eat, i'd feel better, i'd lose the weight instead of gaining it back like i am, it's rising a pound every day and i need to make it stop.