[ThePainNeverDies]

...But I did..

I purged.. I always thought I'd never been able to purge, I'd tried it before and failed.. But now I have succeeded.. Last night, I felt so ill because I ate more than what I usually do, after not eating for a few days.. So I felt fat and disgusting and very sick..

So, somehow I had to get it all out of my system.. So I made myself purge, I didn't stop until I had purged and when I'd done it, I kept going and kept going and didn't stop until I felt empty.. Even then I did it one last time to make sure I had nothing left..

So.. I don't want this to get out of hand, but so I've been told, my not eating is out of hand, so I've been told I have an ED but I'm in denial about it because I don't think I have an ED..

I don't have an ED, I just don't eat and now, if I do eat, I purge it out.. I hate food.. it's something that makes me fat and depressed..

[wishfulmuscle]

any kind of problem with food is considered a disorder (so i've heard) so even just restricting could classify you with "ed"

please try not to make purging a habit.. its god awful to try to get back out of once its routine

[ThePainNeverDies]

I know it's hard to get out of, but I've already started.. and I'm not going to stop now, because when i eta I have to get the food out of me..

I'm not going to keep food inside of me.. It's horrible, fatty, disgusting and depressing