[camel]

ok i'm supposed to go bowling and i feel disgusting. i can't believe i'm all stressed out and don't want to go cus i feel FAT!?! wtf? i complain that all i do is work and i feel like no one has time for me and now i'm supposed to go do something that is supposed to be fun and i totally want to chicken out! i'm going to go only because my daughter is going too and i don't want to ruin her night cus i'm a freak. how insane is it that i feel what i ate today determines how i feel about bowling, and what am i doing having all these feelings about bowling anyhow? so, i feel heavy, as if gravity itself is pushing on me harder than usual, and i feel oily and gross. now i'm going to go smile and act confident and happy and hope no one sees through me or tries to feed me. so i just needed to get that off my chest, thanks for lettin me share peeps.

[darkrunner]

I never want to go out and do things either but usually when I do it ends up being relatively enjoyable, except if food becomes a big issue. Why do people think you can't enjoy activities unless you are eating something? I hope you have some fun and feel like you are getting your mind off your troubles for a while.

I suggested to H that we should take our kids to the baseball game tomorrow night, but I haven't said anything to the kids yet in case I change my mind and don't want to go.....ugh.
let us know how bowling went, camel...

[camel]

bowling turned out pretty fun, no food involved, i don't know y ppl always need food involved in everything either, my friend's boyfriend asked me why i look upset, i was trying to look happy and really i wasn't upset, but other than that it was alot of fun, i enjoyed watching my daughter have fun

[Christina86]

Glad you had fun bowling!

[luckyyouxx]

don't be suprised if it happens again on something as little as even going to the bank. It's happend to me many times before, except I am less strong most of the time and have let those gross feeling stop me from going out and enjoying life. So props to you for not letting it bother you and having a good time!!! Though, if it does happen again, just remember to stay strong like before and don't let our ED monsters control ourselves and our lives.