[Swanno]

I don't know if anyone else struggles with this - or if it even makes sense, but I am making myself fat. It hasn't always been this way. I once weighed 108kg, and I lost 41 through healthy diet and exercise.... Now my head is stuffed up..

I no longer have a healthy attitude to food. I exercise constantly, but my food is - extreme - I am only really good or really bad. When I am good I am obessing about being good, when I am bad I am racked with guilt and need to get rid of the binge...

Thing is - I keep putting on weight. I thought people who suffered this were skinny - I am fat. I am back to 84kgs!!! FAT I don't want to put all that weight on again...

I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome too, so its an uphill battle I am losing at the moment.

I don't want this unhealthy attitude. Anyoen feel the same as me?

[marcelodlanod]

Yes, i feel fat too, i've been through anorexia, kind of bulimia, and then overeater..
I reached my ideal weight, but later i went even downer.. when i got to bottom (when i ate tooooooo much and gained all the weight i lost), i ask for help and... im getting fat again... is a horrible feeling.. and i dont know if im supposed to think like that when im recovering.. the truth is.... EDs are the hardest disorders to manage and.. heal...
Dont ever stop fighting..!!!

[Swanno]

thanks so much for your support. Yesterday was a bad day and today I am fighting every will in my body. My psychologist tells me to just think about each day at a time