[luckyyouxx]

I am wondering if someone who has recovered or is currently trying to recover is out there... I would it if you should share your experience with me, or for those who are recovering.. i would love a recovery buddy, as this is never easy on your own.
I have been proudly purge free for 1 month, 1 week, 2 days and counting... and since then a lot of emotions have uncovered themselves. I am calling sick into work more lately because of feeling overworked and upset, I am withdrawing from social events... (although when I was struggling thru bulimia I pushed away all of my friends, atleast now I am trying to make some again)... I am just struggling. I have a therapist but I need to know how others felt who are going thru or have gone through this before. I just need some hope from someone out there that there is a light at the end of this tunnel and that all of these bad feelings WILL go away.
Thank you and please respond, I need your help.

[marcelodlanod]

Im recovering too from a ED, its not quite bulimia, is anorexia, but i guess, this struggle is the same. I have to tell you, some artist had recover, Kate Blanchet, one of the Olsen twins, and .. other girls.. and boys.. but they won this battle because of their will. Please, be as brave as you are being, there is calm after the storm.. remember that. Be your miracle, believe me, you can be great, you can recover, and you will recover and later, you'll be the one advising others.
By the way.. do you have dismorphia? i feel so fat you know.. sometimes i dont want to recover.. sometimes i think: ".. it was better when i was anorexic..". Dont you dare think like this, you recover, and BE HAPPY!!!
Good luck, and the best wishes to you, and all of us !!

[luckyyouxx]

Holy *****. I never heard of dysmorphia until you mentioned that. I have almost all of the symptoms except for sucidial ideation and panic attacks.
What exactly is it like? Because I don't think I am all that fat, its just my midsection. I can't go out to parties cause I feel like every girl is staring at my belly and I'm constantly staring at it hoping it gets smaller. Every other body part I can live with and accept.
I understand how you feel when you say you feel so fat and that you don't want to recover sometimes... as I am recovering I have a fear of gaining weight again... but then I realised that being chubby and happy is way better than being skinny and unhappy, then eventually dying. I have lost my happiness since my eating disorder and I've begun to get myself back since starting to recover.
I am glad to hear that you are recovering, its a relief to hear!! I was starting to worry with getting no replies. keep at it. I will try not to think like what you said, only if you promise you will try to discard those thoughts too!
Thanks very much for your reply! Good luck to you too, we will be okay