weight loss

Everything was going really well, I started to get my appetite back and I started to feel better, I started to wear nice clothes, and I was always told I looked good, UNTIL some little bastard turned to me and said **** in hell Janette your looking fat, now I can't even look in the mirror without feeling sick, and upset because all I see staring back at me is a fat stupid idiot, so much so I don't even let my Husband see me naked, because I feel I look disgusting, When I tell him how I feel he tells me to stop being so god dam stupid. Sometimes I think he doesn't find me sexually attractive because he doesn't touch me any more. I just don't know what to do any more, I don't want to get how I used to be and not eat, but I am so scared that I will put on weight, and for my husband to leave me, I know he won't but that fear is always there. I have cut down what I eat to 1 meal every 1-2 days, I know it's not healthy, but I just don't want to eat , and I am frightened to get help because I could loose my daughter. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME.

Hi Janette,
Sounds like you are really struggling.

It stinks how one comment can trigger everything all over again.
Why do you think you would lose your daughter?
I have 2 kids (ages 6 and 7)....I was just in the hospital for AN for 4 weeks and I didn't lose them.
If you continue to spiral down then your daughter could be at risk of losing YOU because what you're doing can be very detrimental to your health.
(which I'm sure you know)

Do you have a therapist or pdoc you could call? Or even a GP?
Try to think of ways you can reach out for help before it goes too far.
And keep posting here if it helps.
I wish I could do more....but if you need to talk or vent you can PM me - I will be here for you.
hang in there, Janette....

Thankyou, I guess I get so scared my daughter is my life, Victoria has just turned 1. I have contacted the doctor about what is going on, but unfortunately the doctor thinks I am a complete wacko, I was told there is nothing wrong with me and I am just being stupid, the only descent thing he has done is refer me to speak to someone else, so all I have to do now is wait for an appointment

Hi Janet,

What has your doctor said that leads you to know he thinks your a compete wako?

Or is this a projection , a fear that he does . Because if he thinks negatively and some can , you need to get a new doctor.

I'm sorry this guy made a coment about your body. It happens. they make remarks about breast size and many other things. Its about his small mind .

Don't let his small minded comments win. don't internalize his rejection /abuse.

Good luck on finding a therapist who understands what its like to be sensitive and taking things inward. And how this plays out with food.

There is alot of stigma out there about women with eating disorders . I happened to catch a most disturbing murder solving case on TV where they had this woman with breast implants and bulimia whipping her boy friend with a rubber chicken.

have to laugh at that one. Not gonna go into details about where the chicken ended up. I 'm sorry they let writters produce that kind of "crap"

Seeing this stuff just makes me never want to tell anyone I have suffered from this. I was on a forum that told men to stay away from women with eating disorders by both men and women .

Certainly doesn't help much trying to go out and date having read those posts and have thier words in my head. Not to mention the bad press comedians and tv shows .

I'm a very intelligent caring and beautiful woman who deosn't have breast implants nor spends hours primping herself . I never have.

anyway.

take care, Janet .
and your not a wacko.

Patricia