[Eolyn]

Hey!

I am overweight, normal it wouldn't be too concerning and not much people actually see it quite clearly for i am good at diguising it, but i have instable knees.
Therefor it would be very important to lose weight.
But I just can't.
I love food and eating. I always eat when i feel depressed, that is quite often.

I really wanted to get anorexia or bulimia, but I just couldn't, maybe because I nearly saw my sister dying because of it an struggling with it even now, but she is on a very good way.

But that leeds to me thinking, i can't even do that, being frustrated-> eating.

I tried to eat apples or something like that at those times, not buying chocolate or that stuff.
I still can't control it and that makes me hate myself.

I used to be very competitive at sports, but after I had a accident, I lost it and even though I know, I feel a lot better after and while doing sport, I can't bring myself to do it, because it has become sohard with all the overweight.

Also I must add, I am allergic to certain food, like bread and that stuff, but I eat it anyways and of course I am in pain afterwards, I don't know if it is just plain laziness to make myself good, warm food, or if I wanna hurt myself that way...

Do you have any ideas or suggestions?

[cantstopcrying]

Hi and welcome to pc. I, too, struggle daily....I used to struggle fighting anoerxia and now I struggle with weighing too much and especially struggle with comfort eating. As I, too, struggle and don't have a good grip on it myself, I have no wise words of advice for you. I do, however, suggest that you continue browsing the ED forum--there are great moderators and posters here and the ED chat (see calendar above) is wonderful. Also, we have a Social Group called Journey to a Healthier Weight you can check out. I wish you luck and just wanted to let you know I hear your pain and you are not alone.