[jbug]

Today I have been thinking about why it is that I haven't been eating much lately. Is it because I'm just not hungry? Is it because food just doesn't interest me? Is it because I get sick when I eat? or what? Then as I was eating something today I realized it was because I don't like the way that food feels in my mouth.

It is mushy and gross. I don't like the way it feels. I can just imagine what it looks like and it makes me want to barf so therefore I don't want to eat.

I have called my T and she told me that I am supposed to think about what it is about the way it feels that I don't like and journal about it and we will talk more about it on Thursday when I see her.

Has anyone else had this problem?

Jan

Originally Posted by jbug

Today I have been thinking about why it is that I haven't been eating much lately. Is it because I'm just not hungry? Is it because food just doesn't interest me? Is it because I get sick when I eat? or what? Then as I was eating something today I realized it was because I don't like the way that food feels in my mouth.

It is mushy and gross. I don't like the way it feels. I can just imagine what it looks like and it makes me want to barf so therefore I don't want to eat.

I have called my T and she told me that I am supposed to think about what it is about the way it feels that I don't like and journal about it and we will talk more about it on Thursday when I see her.

Has anyone else had this problem?

HI Jan,

Maybe once or twice . I have had more problems with feeling sexual shame around certain kinds of food . I don't like men to watch me eat.

I don't know if I'll ever get to exact why . I kinda have an idea, I just don't want to draw attention to my mouth.

Im sorry your having these . physical feeligs ,It sound distressing and uncomfortable I agree with your T just journal and do some writing about what comes to you .

Lots of hugs..

Patricia

[jbug]

Thanks for your response Patricia,

I am trying not to think about it too much when I am eating but it soo hard. One of my illnesses is OCD so once something like that gets stuck in my brain it is hard for it to get out. I am trying to think about other things when I am eating or sing songs in my head when I am eating but am finding it hard to do so.

I told my mom about it tonight and she asked me at supper tonight how it felt when I was eating so now I'm sorry I mentioned it to her.

Jan

Originally Posted by jbug

Thanks for your response Patricia,

I am trying not to think about it too much when I am eating but it soo hard. One of my illnesses is OCD so once something like that gets stuck in my brain it is hard for it to get out. I am trying to think about other things when I am eating or sing songs in my head when I am eating but am finding it hard to do so.

I told my mom about it tonight and she asked me at supper tonight how it felt when I was eating so now I'm sorry I mentioned it to her.

Jan

Hi Jan,

I keep forgeting that eating disorders are a category of OCD , usually around the fear of gaing weight .

or in a nut shell .. fear of fat in all forms. on the body and in food.

It sounds to me like you have a good plan to divert the repetitive thoughts that intrude.

When I get overwhelmed I get song jingles pop into my head.

I have a freind who has OCD his fears are a bit different , fears none the less.

Another worry now eh . having told your mom . Someone else to be watching and worrying.

I hope that gives you a giggle..

I was diagnose with OCD and PSTD.
I think mY first T was the most acurate.

Just missed the ADD.

I get caught up in my fears.

Thanks for the reminder.

I like your avatar. I'm fond of the faces of panseys. They are so cheerful and brilliant right now.


Patricia

[jbug]

I was able to eat out to lunch with my parents at Dixie Cafe today. I ordered pork chop, mashed potatoes and a salad to go. I don't eat salads at the resturant because if I do I don't have room in my tummy for my entree as I had gastric bypass surgery 4 years ago. So my meal gets there and the pork chop is so tough I couldn't even cut it with the knife the plate was going all over the table so a Manager walks by and I tell him that my pork chop is tough and he gets me a chicken breast instead. The chicken was ok. It was hot and the flavors were good but the texture of the chicken was interesting and while it wasn't as bad as other things it still didn't feel right.

I know for sure that hamburger isn't the food for me. I really dispise the way it feels in my mouth.

Jan

Hi JBug,

I can see that chop skirting around on your plate.

Looks like your taking care of yourself an working it through all in front of your parents . Good for you.

Thanks for sharing .

Patricia