[wrigh430]

There doesn’t seem to be a single place to just post “about me.” Everything seems segmented: weight loss & exercise, relationships, mental health support, general chat. Seems chaotic to me since I live one life and must manage all those things together, not separately. Anyway, since weight loss is on my mind this morning, I posting this here.

A long time ago (2007/2008) I was raped twice in a period of eight months. My defense mechanism was to gain so much weight (about 100 pounds) that no one would find me attractive, thus I would not be a target for being raped ever again. Well, now, I want to lose that weight. (Mostly, because I’ve met someone for whom I would like to be attractive.) But it’s still kind of scary because, while I want this man’s attention; I still don’t want other men’s attention.

I stepped on the scale this morning and was pleased to see that I weigh 4 pounds less than I did last year at this time. (Accidental weight loss -- Does anyone ever have that problem?)

So, I guess this is my weight loss, mental health, relationship progress journal.

[TishaBuv]

It sounds like you are making good progress psychologically.

[LaDauphine]

Accidental weight loss is very much a thing, . My dog goes through it in the summer, lol. She's so active that she gets SO skinny - to the point people comment. I swear, she eats! Same goes for my FI: He works outside and during the summer months his appetite is JUST not there so he drops about 15 pounds.

4 pounds in a year isn't accidental weight loss, though... That type of difference can come within 24 hours. Or did you mean 40 pounds? Anyway, 4 pounds can occur after a big bowel movement so although it's awesome you're down weight, but don't be heartbroken if you step on the scale tomorrow and see it's back.

PS I also know what you mean about hte segements! I love PC, but sometimes, I wish there wasn't so many choices to post in because half the time I don't post because of it!

[wrigh430]

Is there a place to just post "about me" kinds of things?
This morning relationships are on my mind not weight loss, but I don't like the idea of having tons threads scattered all over the site.

[LaDauphine]

Originally Posted by wrigh430

Is there a place to just post "about me" kinds of things?
This morning relationships are on my mind not weight loss, but I don't like the idea of having tons threads scattered all over the site.

I haven't found one, but I know what you mean! I'd like a Journal section. I know we have a Blog section, but they're so focused and neat an dI Just want a place to word vomit all in one spot

[BrazenApogee]

I do the same thing. I like my excess weight on some level because it keeps me safe from men. I loose weight on occasion and then men notice and i feel unsafe and gain it back. It's not healthy, but I don't know what to do about it.

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by BrazenApogee

I do the same thing. I like my excess weight on some level because it keeps me safe from men. I loose weight on occasion and then men notice and i feel unsafe and gain it back. It's not healthy, but I don't know what to do about it.

That's been my problem too.

[wrigh430]

Originally Posted by LaDauphine

I haven't found one, but I know what you mean! I'd like a Journal section. I know we have a Blog section, but they're so focused and neat an dI Just want a place to word vomit all in one spot

A journal section would be fantastic. I'm a member of another online site that has progress journals, and I really like that. Unfortunately, it's not a mental health forum, so I feel uncomfortable putting mental health issues in my progress journal there.

I didn't even know there was a blog section here -- I'll have to check it out.

[wrigh430]

Originally Posted by BrazenApogee

I do the same thing. I like my excess weight on some level because it keeps me safe from men. I loose weight on occasion and then men notice and i feel unsafe and gain it back. It's not healthy, but I don't know what to do about it.

That's exactly how I feel. Life is strange.

[MiddayNap]

If it makes you feel any better, rapists get their jollies from power and so, although some certainly have a "type"-as serial killers often do-being fat won't keep them at bay, just as covering oneself from head-to-toe in the most modest fashion won't keep them at bay.
I hope this makes weight-loss a little less scary.

[bounceback]

me too, I lose weight to a certain point and then gain a lot back unconsciously. you are not alone

[wrigh430]

Well, I lost 3.4 pounds this week. That's good right?

Anyway, I saw the guy I like last night. We ended up talking for hours again, even after everyone else left. He's coming over for dinner Friday. I'm pretty nervous.

He summers in another state & will be leaving by July 1st. That takes some pressure off. We exchanged addresses last night so we can write each other over the summer since he dosen't have internet at his summer cabin.

[BrazenApogee]

Originally Posted by MiddayNap

If it makes you feel any better, rapists get their jollies from power and so, although some certainly have a "type"-as serial killers often do-being fat won't keep them at bay, just as covering oneself from head-to-toe in the most modest fashion won't keep them at bay.
I hope this makes weight-loss a little less scary.

um no, it did not.
That statement just reminds me how horrible the world is.
Besides, it's not about violence. It's about being close. Being close to anyone is the most terrifying things ever.