[Wharpedbrain]

As the title would leave u to believe, things have gotten worse and worse for me and I don't know anywhere else to turn. I have been suffering from clinical depression, generalized anxiety disorder and ADD for decades now and I have run out of options b/c I'm broke. Last year I was lucky to get treated with TMS for clinical depression and for some months I felt a lot better but the downside is that I learned I got taken advantage of by my ex-wife. I've been in such a fog for so many years and I finally get some treatment that helps and now it all seems like a waste b/c I lost my job, found out my ex screwed me over in our divorce and now my house is being foreclosed and I don't know what to do?? I think about taking my own life everyday. I'm just so sick of myself and the lack of good thoughts and major unproductive time I've spent through my life! I'm my own worst enemy and I never let up on putting myself down and my self esteem is non existent. My anger is getting worse and I'm just tired of dealing with my depressed *** self! Isn't there a university who could use me for a study on depression and other psychiatric disorders??? I would like to help someone who suffers with these disorders. I'm worried that my daughter might inherent these problems and that's one of the reasons I didn't want to have any offspring. My ex wanted a child and when she decided she wanted one she got off the pill w/o discussing it with me b/c it's all about her. That ***** even screwed me in the divorce decree with child support but she waited for years to cash that in. Now I'm broke, lonely, pissed off and ready to end it all! Time is running out for me.

[bluekoi]

Wharpedbrain, Hello and welcome to PsychCentral.

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[Travelinglady]

Hello, WharpedBrain, and welcome to Psych Central! Feel free to vent about your wife in the Divorce section of Relationships and Communication if you would like. Here's the link:http://forums.psychcentral.com/relat...communication/.

[~rider]

It's hard to even think this when things are down like they are for you now, but it gets better. And any times I've thought of taking my life, there've been a couple, I couldn't. Because of my kids, I could never do that to them. Think of your daughter, your life is worth the world to her.

Hardly anything in life stays the same. Good and bad. It'll pass. Make goals, easy ones and just dig out of the hole. One moment at a time. Good luck!

[glok]

"When you get to the end of your rope tie a knot and hang on." ~ Winston Churchill

Welcome to the Community, Wharpedbrain.

http://www.nytimes.com/2009/11/21/he...ient.html?_r=0

I wish you well.

[live2ski66]

Welcome Wharpedbrain, I, and so many folks here, have experienced the sucky place you are at. It is a lot easier to "believe" things would be better if you ended it all than it is to face the long, sometimes uphill battle we fight everyday. When I'm in that spot, I remember what my girlfriend once told me... If I end this karmic contract with life right now, I have not "learned my lessons" and I will have to come back to this incarnation and do it all over again. The thought of having to go through this missery again is enough of a deterrent to try to stick it out one more day.

Feel free to vent as much as you want. This group helped me so much earlier this year when I was in a similar place to yours.

Good luck!