[TheComedyTragedy]

Hey guys, I wanted to ask a question about counselling.

Personally I've struggled for the last 4 years with an eating disorder which has gradually recovered and is now in a liveable comfortable state (I'd probably consider myself recovered) except I still feel the need to compulsive exercise daily or I feel incredibly fat.
After this diagnosis, about 2 years ago I was diagnosed with major depression and had counselling for that. (The counselling for my ed ended when I had to leave as the service was only for under 18s and I went a while, managing to recover myself from the ED without counselling.) So January this year I felt like I was wasting the counsellors time and she may have had people with larger issues than my depression to deal with and I wanted them to get treated. In the meantime in December I started on Sertraline which was gradually upped from 50 to 100 mg. I've had no review appointments and my Dr seems to think keeping me on them is fine, but I've been really down on and off lately.
By down, I mean my boyfriend and mum have been struggling to deal with my mood changes and the quick pace I live my life at in order to keep me busy and not depressed or fat. (A regular day for me contains workout, job, piano, iceskating, sometimes something with friends and another workout.) Because of this I'm not sure whether I now need counselling or not because in my head I feel like I'm making it all up, as though the depressive thoughts don't actually exist and I'm just imagining them. I still struggle to contain my self harm habits but have so far managed a week without self harming and in general most of the time I feel as though I'm getting by. The only times when I don't feel as though I'm getting by are the little episodes I have at least once a week of utter despair when some sort of trigger means that I will feel almost entirely unable to deal with life.
Without my boyfriends constant support I feel I would be in a constant state of 'I cannot leave the house and don't care about life' but because I have him I feel like my life is going on and I'm getting by ok.

[Travelinglady]

Hey, TheComedyTrajedy, and welcome to Psych Central! I think it would be a good idea for you to go back into counseling. I see a counselor every two to three weeks--and sometimes it's been only monthly. But I think it's important for us to have that support, especially when our moods are up and down, and we are still dealing with some concerns about ED, etc.

[NothingCanStopYou!]

First i wanna say you have great coping skills like skating and piano!

Second, if you're thinking about counseling then you probably need it would do better with it.

You are worth it and no problem is too small to deserve a counseling session! If it's a problem for you then you have the right to solve it.
That's why there are counselors in the world. And if you find a good one they usually do it because they genuinely want to.

Let us know what you decide to do!

[TheComedyTragedy]

Thanks guys, I've contacted a counselling service anyway to get a review. They're gonna call me on Saturday to have a half an hour over the phone appointment and we'll see where it goes from there. I'm not sure it's necessary, but I suppose it's worth a try and it'll comfort my boyfriend in the least if I try.

[healingme4me]

I just read your OP where you mentioned sh, moods affecting your life and also minimizing yourself and your counseling as unworthy in comparison to others in this world. Why wouldn't you matter as much as anyone else?

You do matter.

[ChildlikeEmpress]

I agree it's a good idea for you to go back to counseling. I understand about minimizing your pain, I do it too. They will take you seriously though even though you are afraid of wasting their time. I just started to go back to therapy too after stalling for a year because I did not take myself seriously.
Good for you for making an appointment!!