OCD or Delusion of guilt?

Throughout each day I am bombarded with intrusive thoughts of things that I have said or done wrong. I believe that I have either caused pain to another person, or that I have caused them to dislike me, or sometimes it's a confusion of not knowing whether or not what I said was wrong. Any which way, I hate myself. I hum bits of a tune to block these thoughts out when they enter my mind - the humming is an automatic response, or sometimes it's a sigh. It's been going on for years.

Wikipedia defines Delusion of guilt/self-accusation as "an ungrounded feeling of remorse or guilt of delusional intensity." This sounds right, but the thoughts seem OCD to me, also. Does anyone have this problem? Could it be both?

I occasionally am seized by these thoughts...I feel I am in so much trouble for something...feel like I am going to be arrested...see myself standing before a judge being sentenced for something I have done...I hate it when this takes over my mind...it comes and goes randomly.....fortunately OCD is not one of my diagnoses..i have enough..lol...T says it is part of the ptsd..because I am in tx and I am telling my secrets and I feel like I am hurting my abuser and going to get him in trouble so that is going to get me in trouble...makes sense.

Hmm, well, that obsessive rumination (which I am, unfortunately, very familiar with) can be OCD, delusional behavior, a personality disorder issue, depression, anxiety....if you do not hum do you feel any anxiety about not doing so?

maybe it's not OCD, because the humming comes so automatically that I don't have time to see if I'd be anxious if I didn't do it. I don't know though, because it is compulsive - I HAVE to do it in order to break the train of thought. Maybe it's a combination of everything you mentioned.

Hmm. Well, the next time you start to hum, try not humming and see what happens...how you feel, what your thoughts are, and so on.

Tonight, when I caught myself doing it, I tried to go back to the thought that I had before I started humming (actually, this time I started singing and moving to the music too, and it was much better because the music was actually playing!) Anyway, I think all these thoughts amount to are a serious fear of rejection. I was thinking about how I sounded talking on the phone with someone. And so I asked myself, ok, what was so bad about how I was? I tried to remain focused on that conversation, but I couldn't seem to get a grasp on exactly why it was so bothersome to me, other than that I feared rejection. I'm so glad you made that suggestion, though, because I can now start to work on this problem. Thanks

Good to hear that you feel that you can work with what is going on. It did seem to be pointing to OCD to me. You don't have to have both obsessions and compulsions to have OCD but if you do have compulsions then it shifts it way from other things that also have obsessions.

What you describe doing--stopping yourself, asking questions, challenging how automatic you jumped to a negative view, and what were alternatives--this is actually what therapy for OCD is like. So you have figured out how to handle it on your own.

thanks - glad to hear I'm on the right track. I've been doing it a lot. I guess with practice it will become less and less difficult.