[JaeShmurda]

Last year was pretty rough for me i went off my medications because i thought i was well and had a schizophrenic break after 6 months of being stable. The break was more like a manic phase i was extremely delusional and had a lot of social media rants and said horrible things about some of my friends. Friends that knew me and my diagnosis did not mind as much because i am a totally different person when stable. High function college student Mr. Nice guy always willing to lend a helping hand but my ex and her new bf in particular did not accept my apology when i sent a text asking for forgiveness explaining i was unstable. Right now some friends have decided to keep away so i want to know from previous experiences how have you rebuilt your reputation after falling ill i don't want to tell everyone about my sickness but i don't want to be seen as someone of questionable character. Please help

[pegasus]

Hello JaeShmurda, welcome to Psych Central.

I would say that your X girlfriend and her new boyfriend have a vested interest in being unsupportive of you so do not take their reaction to mean anything. In my opinion, just be honest, you had an illness which incidently, you couldn't control! Your true friends understand. You need to forgive yourself and understand that you did not do it on purpose, your were in the middle of psychosis at the time.

Originally Posted by pegasus

Hello JaeShmurda, welcome to Psych Central.

I would say that your X girlfriend and her new boyfriend have a vested interest in being unsupportive of you so do not take their reaction to mean anything. In my opinion, just be honest, you had an illness which incidently, you couldn't control! Your true friends understand. You need to forgive yourself and understand that you did not do it on purpose, your were in the middle of psychosis at the time.

There it is. I know there may be practical/professional issues to consider in that situation but as for the social impact... the opinions of most people are meaningless. Or have only as much meaning/value as you give them.

[JaeShmurda]

Thanks for your reply. Right now I'm just focusing on my goals graduating and pursuing a masters degree. I think mental illness is both a gift and a curse it makes you see the world for what it really is it makes you understand that most friendships are borne out of convenience and are superficial and in general lack depth. It makes you value the few friends that stand by you even more. This is what i have learnt so far dealing with all this. As for my ex well I've done what i can do to reason with her its no more my problem but hers i refuse to feel down for something out of my control.