[Durra]

I'm diagnosed with ADHD. I do things slow because I couldn't concentrate on the tasks given. I'm always anxious during last minutes, I never sleep when I'm anxious(for days usually, longest was a month with just random dosing off). I'm aggressive if someone disturbs me when I feel anxious(Intermittent Explosive Disorder yes, but never throw delicate objects/at people). Whenever I get infuriated, I start smiling and laughing for no reason and become uncontrollably destructive.. (once a dog bit me, I laughed and kicked it 5 feet into the air.. I love animals very much, but this dog was so aggressive and spoilt, I cope with him for months)

I don't know if my behavior(underlined) reflects that of bipolar disorder, but what I do know is I don't feel depressed at all, it usually comes after aggression.. I throw things when I feel too irritated but later I do feel regretful and proceed picking them up. However when I'm in that creepy state, I don't feel anything at all..

[pegasus]

Hello Durra, no you are not freaky, it's part of your condition Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD and ADHD) - Psych Central With medication and psychotherapy you'll feel much better and learn to cope with it.

[-jimi-]

I have understood part of my rages are extreme fatigue. I may not even feel it because I'm always pushing through. And I don't listen to my body because I've sort of been trained not to do it. Sometimes my mind is not feeling tired because it is so busy so I miss how terribly tired I am.

I can snap into rages because triggers but also I need to be quite tired for it to happen. Then I don't have much control over impulses and strong emotions. I've recently understood that the main thing for me to prevent this is rest. Which I had to work for, because people think I'm lazy anyway... Sometimes I have to look through the last days to actually understand I need the rest, I have been very busy or stressed or slept too little etc to even see it.

If I know I am tired and on the verge of a rage, it can diffuse it some if I accept that I'm probably very worn down. I can tell myself to postpone the reaction to after I rest. I know... not easy.

I'm not saying any of this is true in your case, but I wanted to share anyway in case something rings a bell.

[avlady]

I get symptoms of my mental illness when i am sleep deprived

[avlady]

I suffer from depression, bipolar and schitzophrenia and those with other diagnosis are awful with sleep deprevation causes my symptoms to go heywire