i don't have a desire to have friends anymore

So don't get me wrong, sometimes i do. But I've found that my desire for friends isn't really there.

like, I've added some new friends to the contact book, but sometimes, it just seems like its a hassle.

also, whenever i talk, sometimes it doesn't make a lickity split of sense. So its like I'm always worrying about what i say and if they'll understand or not. I talk to myself, and I'm perfectly happy doing so. i understand what I'm saying. i have full conversations with myself and I've talked to myself for hours at a time. weird. but i don't care.

I've been caught by friends and my parents talking to myself. its embarrassing, but i will never stop. I'm just so interesting to talk to lol

Hi HelloWorld18

I sometimes talk to myself too, usually in my mind, but I think it makes no difference really if it's out loud or inside our heads, it's just expressing it in a different way. My husband frequently speaks his thoughts out loud when he's busy with something, like unpacking the dishwasher or doing the ironing. I think it's amusing, in a good kind of way.

As for where you are on the friendship point of view?

I guess it's about whatever makes you feel comfortable right now.

If you're currently in your comfort zone, I foresee no reason to suddenly rock the boat.

In this day and age of texting, emails, and such...at least you're talking (:

i know exactly what you mean. making friends is a hassle sometimes (like i need to socialize and have those awkward times where you just run out of topics to talk about and then there's me trying to save a dying conversation. it's way too much effort than neccessary). I'm way more entertained sitting by myself doing whatever i want to but i do get lonely from time to time.

Yeah I stopped trying to make sense to people. I've been told my method of talking is "backward" but such is life. Maybe the people who don't want friends can become friends together? (:

haha that actually sounds like a great idea! when i talk everything is just really jumbled up because my thoughts are disorganized so im jumping from topic to topic in a matter of seconds until things start getting awkward and i run out of topics. This way i come off as socially awkward :S

Yeah my problem is I never run out of topics. Lol when people are "done talking" I don't pick up on it unless they say "I gotta go". Veeeery awkward. Doesn't help that I topic hop as well (ADHD) " what're you up to?" And "when did the civil war begin?" Easily occur in the same sentence or one after the other. *sigh*

I'm an only, had some social anxiety growing up & came from a strict religious upbringng. I spent a lot of time reading.

When I went to school, work & church, I was fairly outgoing. Especially as I matured. When I was away from there, I didn't usually stay in touch. I would think of them, from time to time. I'm fine when I'm around people. When I'm away from them, it's a little bit of out of sight, out of mind.

Several years ago, I went through a major health event. Most of my interactions were online. Most of them still are. On one hand, I'm an observer. On the other hand, I'm a participant. I tend to be more of a loner, independent, free spirited & self contained.

Most of the time I'm satisfied by communicating on forums or by brief exchanges with the neighbors. I sometimes choose to be around people, but, I don't need to be. Occasionally I wish I wanted more connections. It's not fair to others, though. I can retreat for weeks & months at a time. I'm a good friend. I'm just not one to get together with often.

We all converse with ourselves.

I wonder if your behavior is driven by anxiety and depression or you are simply introverted.