[whatswrongwithme02]

Hello,

My name is Nina. I'm 33 yrs old, a wife and mother of 4 children, only 3 live at home.
I've always thought there was something wrong with me mentally but what has always been a question I've kept to myself, for far too long now. I have numerous symptoms, some of which consumes me, controls me, swallows me whole. I can't be a normal, happy, energetic mother I always dreamed of being. I can't seem to keep relationships with people. So much so it's destroyed any hope of any friendships.
There are many symptoms that goes along with my inability to have any social relationships for example, severe ups and downs, severe outbursts of anger and irritability. Temper outbursts, feelings of everyone hates me, dislikes me, is talking about me. I feel so down probably 4 to 5 days out of the week. I won't eat, all I want to do is sleep. I won't even care if I bathe or not. What is wrong with me? I need answers and help if I'm ever gonna live a half normal life. I want this not only for myself but for my family that I do love so much.
Any opinions, suggestions and/or conversation would help greatly. What should I do next to help myself???

[pegasus]

Hello whatswrongwithme02, welcome to Psych Central.

We can't diagnose here but there does sound like there are a few issues going on here. I looked at your profile page and you say that you also have issues around food. From what I have read here it sounds like the primary issue is depression with anxiety and a possible eating issue. You can try these online tests here >>>> The Sanity Score - Test Your Mental Wellness and Psychological Tests and Quizzes these will give you some idea of what is going on for you and you can even print out the results to share with your doctor. I do recommend you go and see your doctor because life does not have to feel as bad as it feels for you right now.

Hello whatswrongwithme02,

Welcome to PC Forums.

I can relate to some of the issues you mentioned in your post. I suffered for 9 months having symptoms close to yours. Sometimes, my wish in life was to get into a car accident and die! Also, I suffered from sever physical pain caused by my mental condition (which I came to know later) in several parts in my body, specially arms and chest.

I gradually started having social withdrawal which adds to the bad condition I already have.

I read your profile. I feel your pain and I understand that what you feel is true and real. The ONLY recommendation/suggestion I have for your is get professional medical help ASAP. Go see a Psychiatrist. I made a mistake of not seeking help right away when I felt something is wrong with me.

I understand there's this stigma about mental issues. But consider yourself lucky being in the US. I live in a country where If I confess to even my closest friends about my depression they will think I am crazy LOL !

So please get help. You need it. If you feel that you don't deserve help (which by the way this is a whole other story, I read your negative words about yourself, this simply should stop, I know it is easier said than done but you get the point. You are a unique worthy human being) Sorry I drifted away with my thoughts, so yes, seek help at least for your family that you love and care for.

Please let us know your next step and what are you thoughts.

Stay Strong!