[Sarmas]

I've been in therapy for about 4 years now with the same therapist. I've an into issues before with lateness and texting in the beginning of my session. My trauma is quite extensive and my life has only gotten worse since I started seeing her due to my ex leaving. Now, I'm suffering in numerous ways including financially which just creates even more chaos. im at a point now where I'm trying to figure out how beneficial this really is. I have an attachment issue which is what has been stopping me from leaving. I think if she was a friend she would be more beneficial in my life perhaps than as a T and that's not feasible. Obviously, she wouldn't see me if my insurance didn't pay her and I didn't give her the copay. Now because I will be terminated under my ex's insurance that all changes as well. There could be a cap as to the number of sessions and it's definitely pricier on my end plus I'm not sure if I can even afford insurance. Then she texts in the beginning of my session and she's very aware of her phone during session. She doesn't answer my emails. She forgets where we left off and then blames me for not bringing things up because it's my session. When I have confronted her she gets defensive and somehow it's my fault and perhaps I don't like her "style". We spend sessions with her asking me why I'm there and we haven't been addressing anything that I find substantial. She seems like she can't wait for time to end in order for her to get on her phone which she immediately does once I get up. She's also forgetting facts and events which I thought was odd. So I cancelled the one appointment due to my frustrations and she never questioned it. Then later on I decided to take a therapy break of which at this point I might not go back. I sent her an email telling her so and she hasn't responded to that either. She has favorites for sure and so there are people that I know of that see her twice a week and have her undivided attention. Perhaps it's all me but at this point I don't want to take a chance, invest in therapy, and start all over with new T that might do the same or be worse. I'm just lost.

Wow, how inconsiderate of her.

Is it possible to ask her to set up with you an agenda each week to adhere to in addition to a time span to work through/achieve pinpointed troubles?

[Sarmas]

That would be nice but she seems to want to skip over things because she said it would take too long to address. I believe that what she wants to skip over then becomes a generalized subject which I never get to process but I feel the need to. According to her I have to "let it go".

[Thunder Bow]

Time for a new Therapist for sure. Enjoy your therapy break, is was much needed.

[Sarmas]

I think at this point I'm calling it quits with therapy. I was better off when I was on my own. At least there was no one to have issues with and I don't leave the session feeling worse with less in my pocket and wondering how to process things.

[Thunder Bow]

Give yourself time to process things. It is common to feel worse after a session. It usually means old ways are not being re-enforced, or you got into some avoided feelings. Healing takes time. To heal one must have the desire to heal, otherwise therapy will be useless. No need to rush into Therapy, until you are ready.