[ECwalkrr33]

So i don't have this problem now but I had it up until probably freshman or sophomore year of high school. When I was younger I was shy and socially awkward, I was nothing like myself now. I always wondered why I was so shy and awkward because it caused me to miss out on making friends and stuff but I think I figured out why. As I child for some reason I was just AWFUL at conversation. When in a convo in like 2nd grade it would take me up to like 30 seconds to think of a response. It was slightly less bad in middle school but still bad. There are a lot of situations I remember but one was the summer I was going into 8th grade I went to this tennis camp and this girl from my school victoria went as well. She was very talkative and always talked to me and me being me I couldn't talk well so I was shy. She liked me and I kinda liked her so I tried my hardest to talk but I just couldn't think of what to say and when I could I would stutter a lot. But yeah now that I think about it the reason I have been shy my whole life was because I just didn't know what to say. I can remember the feeling of trying to process what someone was saying while trying to form a response and that just being a huge overload for my head. Also I was like really in my head all the time so sometimes when talking to people I would just blank out and miss most of what they said. Thats probably my adhd and maybe the not knowing what to say is apart of my adhd. So yeah does anyone know what was wrong with me? Knowing won't make me any happier probably just feel bad for myself more but I really want to know why I was like this.

[Skeezyks]

Hello ECwalkrr33: I'm sorry I cannot offer an opinion with regard to what was going on with you. But I saw no one had replied to your post. So I thought I would.

There are many things about my childhood I don't understand either. But I've come to accept, over time, that in my case it is all simply a ball of wire that will never be untwisted.

I suppose this is the kind of thing people seek therapy for. Over a period of time, if one spends enough time in therapy, maybe these sorts of questions get answered. I don't know. Perhaps other members, here on PC, will yet reply with some more helpful comments.

[Smiles007]

I sort of experienced what you did as a child so I can relate.

Curious to see what others will say.

[pachyderm]

There are several forums on Psych Central that deal with similar problems. There could be problems with emotional abuse in childhood, or just any of a number of more neurological problems. Check out the ones here:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/#mental-health-support