[LudwigAusterlitz]

Hey lads,

So around a few minutes ago (guess 30?), I just started to felt strange like..I can barely describe how I feel, no clue why, heh. (Kinda bad at explaining how I feel)

Basically, how I feel in a nutshell:

- Left alone,
- Hated,
- Angry at my friend (more like heavy jealousy, since he's talking to his ex and stuff..and people talk to him and things like that.)
- Angry at myself,
- Feeling as if I am stupid,
- Gigantic urge to cut (I have cut before..kinda badly I guess?)
- Slightly anxious,
- Want to cry for no reason,

And the tradional I want to murder and slaughter every single person I hate..yay.

Besides of that I am just an easily confused, and fast angry person..quite lonely as well, which sucks, but hey, what can I do.

As well as that, today I had a weird feeling. Like everything was going on too much, things did not seem real at times, time ticked by quite fast, and things kinda went too fast for me to say..I don't know how to describe it, kinda unreal. This is like the second time or third time I have this (in a span of 'ever in my life), or I might have had more of this, but I can't remember..who knows..

I'd be glad if someone could give some information or whatever you call it regarding this.

[Skeezyks]

Hello LudwigAusterlitz: Well... the Skeezyks is no psychologist. And I don't even know that much about mental health issues as a lay person. So I'm probably not the best member, here on PC, to reply to your post. But I have certainly felt a lot of what you've experienced including feeling like everything seems unreal.

From my personal, non-professional perspective, I would suggest that what you are experiencing is related to high levels of anxiety... possibly mixed with some depression... resulting in what I believe is typically referred to as depersonalization / derealization. Perhaps you're already familiar with these terms. I have sometimes described my own experience of this as being the "head in a fish bowl" effect. Here is a link to a Mayo Clinic article with regard to depersonalization / derealiztion:

Depersonalization-derealization disorder - Mayo Clinic

If you click on the word "Symptoms" below the definition, I think you'll find several of the experiences you've described listed there. Hope this is helpful.

[LudwigAusterlitz]

Thank you,

I'll see what I can do based on your answer