Stuck - Can you help?

Lazy, too. Darn.

I'm pretty lazy myself, but the lack of motivation can definitely originate from a heavy heart. Not so much the blues, but deep introspective music helps me feel better, too. I can't listen to happy music when I'm upset; it just pisses me off because that bubbliness is annoying at that moment, haha.

(If only I could slap some of those damn pop stars )

I find myself working on projects when I'm too restless to sleep, get motivation from a favorite song or when I'm getting thoughts of self-harm. My hair tie on my wrist "snaps" me out of the thought at that moment; the music, art and stories (I write) keep me out. When I'm anxious, I write it out. When I'm depressed, I draw it out. And when my mind haunts me with intrusive thoughts and flashbacks, I play music that eases my mind back to being mine. For me, it's about coping but it has changed me a lot.
It's more of getting yourself into that habit than having the motivation.

Also, really embarrassing, sometimes I have to make myself laugh and I'll dance at bizarre songs that I normally can't stand (I know "Best Friend" by Toy Box word for word and dance to that ****). It makes me feel silly and I imagine how I look in someone else's eyes. It's spectacular
When I'm adventurous, I'll do it in front of people.

Actually, doing any of these things would be radical for me at this point. Maybe I will pick up my guitar, wipe off the dust, and strum it a bit, introspectively.

Haha, sounds like a plan to me.

I have had this intention before...but... ...
Always waiting for inspiration...

looks like I need a new game plan...

something like...feel the weightiness and sadness and pain...and

do it anyway...

That's better medicine than anything a shrink would prescribe, in my book.

"Sometimes to stay alive, you gotta kill your mind" Like that.