Not sure what this could be??

Hi, I don't know what to think about these issues I've been having. I'll just dive right in I guess.
First, (this sounds weird) sometimes I feel like my brain is trying to trick me. Almost like I can't trust my own brain. Sometimes I will triple check what time it is if I have somewhere to be because I think that my brain is telling me the wrong time just so I'm late. I've had this happen for a long time. I remember in high school I would always wait for everyone else to leave school because I was so scared that I was imagining the bell ringing... and sometimes I think about something and I'm afraud that I'm actually acting it out but my brain is tricking me into thinking I'm not.
Anyway, secondly... for about 2 or 3 years now I've had this constant "foggy headed" thing going on. I'm not really sure how to describe it but it's like there's a "barrier" between my brain and my physical self, if that makes sense. It's very hard to concentrate and I get overwhelmed very easily. I have a history of chronic depression and every Dr I've talked to blamed it on my depression. I was diagnosed with severe depression at 8 so I've struggled with it for quite a while and it has never presented this way. I've also had MRIs done, extensive blood work, an ultrasound on my heart, and also wore a heart monitor for a week to rule out any other causes for these symptoms and nothing has come of it. Eventually my Dr stopped making suggestions because he decided it was my depression. I've since been on multiple mediations and started counseling and nothing has made a difference.
I need advice on what to do now and what it might be, if anyone recognizes any symptoms. I owe tons in medical bills that show nothing and I can't afford to continue random testing. I don't know if I should just give up and learn to live with it or if there's hope.

The only thing I can think of is depression and you have problems trusting yourself for some reason. Maybe therapy could teach you why you don't trust yourself? Have you tried therapy?

Check out dissociative depersonalization derealization disorder. See if that fits. Sounds kind of like what's been going on with me. If you have anxiety disorder that's another red flag. I just whatever it is you can get the help you need. I hope you find this helpful to you.

Oh yes. Lots of therapy! I had the best therapist when I was about 12 and then she retired and I haven't been able to find one I like, or can afford, since And I've been through quite a few just can't seem to find that "match."

I wondered about dissociative disorder. Yes I have anxiety. I guess I just need to go on the hunt for a good psychiatrist. It's just hard to try to take care of yourself when you can't afford insurance and out of pocket is just ridiculous!!

To be honest I can relate to what you are talking about. Although, I have never thought about it as something weird necessarily. I mean I always thought that needing to recheck the time (multiple times), and watching to see if the others leave first in class was something that everyone did once in a while (although i did it more often than once in a while). I have never thought about it being do to depression though... not that I am saying that I have depression but I am almost certain that I have some form of depression, anxiety, or other mental problem. I am currently 16 years old and suspect that IF I do have depression that I've lived with it for years.

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I'm just wondering (since this is the first time I've read something that seems so close to how I feel/am) do you ... hear things every now and then? by that I mean hearing people call your name when they didn't ... or no one's there. or if you're listening to music and you all of a sudden hear someone talking as if they're right next to you? ... but no one is there? (this tends to happen when I'm using my earbuds on my way home from school)

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sorry I'm getting off topic. I just wanted to let you know that while I don't know what it is exactly you are going through that you are not alone even though you may feel like it.

well bye, and I hope you find out what is happening to you soon!

I have experienced many things like the poster described. I believe it to be the effects of dissociation and/or depersonalization, derealization. One of the hallmarks in dissociation disorders is the inability to distinguish between thinking something happened and it actually happening. Like locking your front door and then a little later doubting that you actually did it, that maybe you only thought about it, or remember doing it the night before. And the foggy headed thing i remember describing to someone as if my head was a helium baloon tied to my neck and floating in the general vicinity of myself. The feeling of unreality.

I have the foggy headed feeling sometimes... I will be walking down the street and feeling like It's not actually me that is walking but like I'm watching a video of the landscape just floating by. Or I'm just sitting in class kind of foggy-headed and can't concentrate very well. I think this happens to me mostly when I'm feeling (somewhat) depressed.