[aarya10]

Since 2013, I've been struggling with speech and cognitive issues and it's been getting worse and worse over the years. All my doctors wrote it off as an anxiety disorder issue, but I no longer struggle with anxiety anymore but this issue isn't going away.

It's as if the coordination between my brain and voice has been scr*wed up. I can't control myself when I speak, I say the wrong words out loud even though I KNOW what I want to say in my head.

Like the other day, I wanted to say the word "book" and it took me a while before I could say it.

I say things that are completely grammatically incorrect (EG: "I brings the thing you asked!") and it's so frustrating because I'm a student right now, studying language and writing, which is the worst thing for me. I've ruined so many first impressions because I come across as someone who's... useless, basically. When, and I don't mean it in a boastful way, I used to be very good at what I do. Now I've lost it all. It's jammed in my brain and I can't it out.

I could go on about my speech issues, but I think you get it. And I also have issues with reading. I take TOO long to read. Too long. People have pointed it out, they make fun of me. When I read, sometimes I see words that aren't even on the page. When I reread it, the word's not there.

I thought this was an anxiety thing, but I could be with the person I feel most comfortable with, and feel absolutely no anxiety at all and it'll still happen, I'll still mess up. Everyone speaks to me so condescendingly because they think I'm unintelligent and it makes me feel so, so sad.

I want to go back to who I was. I don't even know why this is happening. No one will take me seriously because "anxiety". Jesus.

[childofchaos831]

I know the feeling... I don't really have any advice, as I'm kind of in the situation right now.

I was in a serious car accident in September, and among other injuries, received a "moderate" concussion. I brought up having some difficulty finding words with the neurologist (that I was referred to for the concussion) and he kind of blew it off, and focused on the headaches. I was working on homework tonight, and kept getting frustrated, because I knew the word I wanted, but I couldn't get my brain to actually think of the word.

I hope you can get someone to listen. I wonder if you could get a second opinion, without them seeing the first opinion... idk.

One of my mom's old colleagues was diagnosed with an extremely rare disorder, that several doctors had missed. He ended up in the ER, and an intern/resident, who had just read about this disorder for class happened to be the one that saw him, while other doctors were saying it was psychosomatic or that he was exaggerating the symptoms.

Sometimes, it takes trying over and over and over until you get the one doctor that believes you or knows exactly what it is, for whatever reason.

Keep trying!

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you've been struggling so much

Have you considered it may be medication. Also, (I am assuming you are a woman?) are you at all peri-monopausal?

Both of these things can cause the very symptoms you are describing.

[tippitippi]

I started doing this and my daughter looked it up. Said it was some type of expressive aphasia (Wikipedia) that might have had another name and said it's common when you get a little older. She also said the more you "try" the worse it gets so it's better to stop worrying and struggling with it. Since then I have talked to a lot of women with the same issue. All around my age late 40s.

[ray68]

I'm 27 and I struggle with this. I still don't know what causes it but my shrinks seem to think its from my schizophrenia. "Disorganized thoughts" How can thoughts be disorganized if there are none? I've always had it as well. I used to be mute when I was little because I would try so hard to speak and nothing would come out or I would stutter the same word. So I gave up speaking. My teachers thought that I was autistic. I went to speech therapy for two years and it helped a lot. Mostly I think because the tutor didn't make me rush to say anything, she helped me in my time. In school you have to say an answer immediately and that put a lot of pressure on me. I still have trouble in real time conversations and it is very embarrassing when you say something incorrectly. You can't explain that you're smarter than you sound. I can't even say "that came out wrong" most of the time. I would, if I were you, and since it sounds like it may be getting worse, I would go to a regular doctor and see what they say. They might even do a brain scan to see if there is a blockage, or blood tests to see if there is a chemical imbalance that may be causing it. I need to speak with my P doc tho because I've just realized that some of my stuttering is possibly a result of some past trauma as it gets worse when I am around a certain person. Not that it is any easier to control! Sorry you're going through this. Its frustrating.

[eyesclosed]

Sorry people can be cruel and bully. Do you have a counselor at school maybe if you tell them of your problems they could accommodate u in some way, I know it's hard to except especially at your age. You do have other gifts though. It's going to slow you down so the faster you can accept and adapt in time you will figure out coping strategies one I use is a voice recorder because I transpose letters and numbers backwards somedays are better than others for me. Best wishes for u

[Cyllya]

I sympathize, I feel like my executive functioning problems are always blamed on my depression, even when my depression is in remission thanks to the meds.

When's the last time you brought it up to the doctor? (If it's been awhile, maybe let them know that it's still a problem.) Have you tried making an appointment about just this problem? (It's more convenient to bring it up at the same time you're going in for another reason, but I've found that makes it more likely for doctors to brush off some things.) Can you go to a different doctor? Maybe your GP instead of your psychiatrist?

[aarya10]

Originally Posted by justafriend306

Have you considered it may be medication. Also, (I am assuming you are a woman?) are you at all peri-monopausal?

Both of these things can cause the very symptoms you are describing.

I'm no longer on medication and haven't been for a long time, but that's another story. I'm still young, I'm in my early 20s.

[aarya10]

Originally Posted by Cyllya

I sympathize, I feel like my executive functioning problems are always blamed on my depression, even when my depression is in remission thanks to the meds.

When's the last time you brought it up to the doctor? (If it's been awhile, maybe let them know that it's still a problem.) Have you tried making an appointment about just this problem? (It's more convenient to bring it up at the same time you're going in for another reason, but I've found that makes it more likely for doctors to brush off some things.) Can you go to a different doctor? Maybe your GP instead of your psychiatrist?

I've brought it up with my GP before, but he was aware of my mental health issues, so he dismissed it as anxiety as well. Perhaps I should see another doctor who doesn't know about my other illnesses! Thank you.

Well, any and every other doctor you would see WILL be aware of your complete physical and mental health issues. Your medical files go with you wherever you go and part of a physicians [i]first[i] responsibilities is to familiarize themselves with it.

There are physical health issues that could cause this - like hyperparathyroidism, and thyroid issues like Hashimoto syndrome, Diabetes Insipidus, and I could go on and on. I only know about these off hand as I've recently gone through testing for them. Your mental health need not have anything to do with this; but, in some cases, medication (lithium) could have triggered these issues - they don't go away.

Again, go to your GP and inform them of your concerns. And, yes get that second opion if you need to. What should happen is that the doctor orders a requisition for a pretty comprehensive set of blood tests.