I feel like there is something wrong with me.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like there is something wrong. When I was younger, my dad used to abuse me & stuff.

I talk to myself alot. Sometimes I talk to myself and act as another person. Having a conversation with myself. Its insane. I will talk about anything, dramatic. Sad. Happy. Anything. I could start crying when I'm talking about something sad.

And I tend to get frustrated alot and start hitting myself. Usually only when I'm alone. Most of the time, I'm alone when this happens. I will start making weird sounds and start scratching myself or digging my nails on my skin and start breathing really hard and I'll slowly start tearing up. My dogs will help me and lick me when this happens.

I feel so insane. I don't know what to do.

Have you seen a doctor or therapist about how you're feeling?

No I haven't..I'm not ready. I wish someone who could help me here.

Therapy can help you deal with self hate, however there is no quick fix. Talking to yourself is normal when alone, it is the self put down add ons that need attention.