[CalebWestern123]

I have OCD and ADHD to begin with. But for the past year I've lost myself. I lack empathy and struggle with impulse control. Now I have had these problems for a while but they popped back up. I steal things and lie and then feel guilty but rationalize my behavior. I've been called a sociopath several times but denied it. I have very low self esteem and want to be special so bad but fail a lot of times. I'm never satisfied and always try to get attention and people's praise. I suck with dating because I don't know how to talk to them and relate to them so I become hyper and lose myself. I have anger problems. Mainly impulsive anger outburst, but I take stimulants which make me less impulsive a lot of times. I never understand myself. I think I'm something, but not. I mean back then I used to be liked and I charmed people to like me so that I could be praised. But now no one likes me. I fake things and lie so so much too the point we're it's a habit. I lie so much I start to not like myself for lying like that. Ocd makes me very intrusive and stressed out. Sorry for the random sentences, I have a hard time keeping focus on the topic sometimes. I don't know what's true about me and who I am or what I am doing. I'm trying so hard to be approved. I'm not like myself anymore. My psychiatrist is trying to give me assignments and she can't figure out with me. but that's all I've lost my self image and my personality and what makes me special.

[Quarter life]

Hi CalebWestern.

Certainly sounds like you could use some extra support & encouragement. But you also seem to have a lot of insight into traits you would like to change in yourself, which is a good place to start.

For those who feel alone, or simply wanting to reach out for a chat without judgement......Psych Central is the place. There are many good listeners here... we're a pretty good bunch.

I have been an active member of this site for more than 3 years. In that time I have received some really constructive feedback and connected with several others with similar challenges to myself. I have also found hanging out in the Games Forums to be a welcome distraction in times of stress... a great way to clear my head, meet like minded others, and have some well needed fun. New members also benefit greatly from perusing the many forums available here...lots to explore.

Also after 5 approved posts members have the option to join the chatrooms..or chat one on one with other members.

Should you have any questions on navigating this site, please don't hesitate to private message me or any of the other Community Liaisons who will be more than happy to help. Just click on the screen name above my avatar.

Please be kind & generous to yourself CalebWestern, and welcome to P.C

[Shazerac]

Welcome to psych central

[CalebWestern123]

Yea I just wonder where to find this encouragement because this forum is tricky.

[Sunflower123]

Hello. Welcome to PC I'm glad you're here.

[Quarter life]

Originally Posted by CalebWestern123

Yea I just wonder where to find this encouragement because this forum is tricky.

Hi CalebWestern.

Introducing ourselves is always a good start for new members, which is exactly what you did...all good. You may want to re-post in the OCD & ADHD Forums, which also has a sub forum of OCD Success stories. https://forums.psychcentral.com/ocd-trichotillomania/

It does take a while to familiarise oneself with the site as it has many groups & sub Forums.