[Sapphic-galaxy]

I’m not even sure if this fits in this forum but I’m not sure where else to ask.

I have this problem where I become overly fixated on this one person. I feel like I have to know every single last detail about this person.

Instead of just talking to them, I will go to crazy limits to find them on social media and obsessively check it all the time. When I say this, I don’t mean in a cute “stalking your crush on Facebook” kind of way. I mean,almost every time I open my phone, going to their social media is my natural reflex.

If I see the person in public I make a point to remember when and what time I saw them in order to increase the odds of bumping into again. Sometimes I go as far as to learn their schedule to do this.

Whenever I see the person I feel great shame because I know things about them that I shouldn’t and feel extra anxious around them because I’ve created a version of them in my head and put them on a pedastol.

I know all of this is wrong and feel horrible for doing it and yet, I can’t stop myself. I compulsively do this. How do I stop it and what does it mean? I’m a 19 year old girl btw and have social anxiety if it helps.

[Sunflower123]

Hello. Welcome to PC I don't have any advice. Hopefully others will. I just wanted to welcome you. I'm glad you're here.

[Shazerac]

Welcome to psych central

I don't know what this means. Maybe it's an overblown desire to feel a connection with another person? If you have social anxiety maybe this is your only outlet? But I'm just theorizing here. I'm not a professional. Have you tried talking to a therapist?

[divine1966]

Are you seeing a therapist? Psychiatrist? Have a diagnosis? Taking meds? I'd start to pursue that. My husband has severe OCD (different than yours). Behavioral and other types of therapy along with right meds made his life manageable. You can deal with it, with appropriate professional help