[Aquiverly]

Hi guys. So brief intro. I have recurrent depressive disorder, social anxiety disorder, autism spectrum disorder, trichotillomania and agoraphobia.
All my life, I have always thought my house was haunted, seeing things hearing things etc when nobody else would. Fast forwarding to today, I have been clinically depressed for 5 months now with 8 hospitalisations. I used to think people were calling my name and I used to get upset. I get times where I feel disconnected from reality and times with that I had gone to a train station or main road because I have an inner voice telling me to do so. The voice in my head is sometimes male sometimes female. It's called Tony. It morphs to confuse me. It's a demon. I've seen him in my dreams. He shows me scenarios where I msut cut myself in half, shoot myself in the heart. Last night he showed me and told me self injurious behaviour is and feels good. He tells me promises like afterlife is better etc. I often feel possessed and know that its in me. Ive taken pics when this has happened and it doesnt look like me. I have often followed the instructions. It becomes nice when I do as it says.

[LiteraryLark]

Isn't with psychosis you're unaware of the fact that you're delusional? At least, that's how I experienced my psychosis...

Originally Posted by LiteraryLark

Isn't with psychosis you're unaware of the fact that you're delusional? At least, that's how I experienced my psychosis...

Perhaps but I don't think necessary. When I was delusional I suspected I was too. I understood something wasn't quite right but, as the delusion was leading me to live a very exciting life I was happy to go along with it. It was only when I crashed that I understood it was even worse than I had given it credit for and I sought help.

Aquiverly - are other people aware of this? Do you have a support network you can fall back on regarding this?

[Loose Screw x 2]

Are you seeing a counselor or therapist? It may not be demonic. It may possibly be something like DID or schizophrenia or both. I'm no doctor and can not diagnose you but, I have a personality in me who is very dark and seems demon-like to the rest of us in my mind. Knowing that we feel that way boosts his ego and he likes to think of himself that way too. Until you start seeing a doctor or therapist about this it is going to be hard to know what is really going on but, don't just assume that it is definitely demonic in nature. With your already existing problems it may very well be a mental problem that just needs to be observed by a professional therapist and/or doctor.

[davign]

seeing a demon or an angel would be the best thing ever! it would give me proof positive that their is and omnipotent being , my mother was religious I lost faith and belief when I cried and cried, and begged her to speak to me after her death today she still remains silent