What is this?

Okay, so the last few months pretty much, I’ve been super depressed and stuff. And today, I woke up at noon, but didn’t have energy to leave my bed until 3pm, and ended up missing 2 classes on my first day back to school. And I wasn’t really feeling like doing anything, but I thought maybe it was a good idea to see a movie, since where I am, if you are a member of the theatre franchise, you can see a free movie at 1000 points, which I had, so I saw a free movie tonight, which I was nice. And once I got back, I had this sudden urge to clean everything. It was as if my mind was moving a mile a minute. I just had so much energy. I’m not sure if I felt good, like I kinda did/do, as I’m kinda in it. But anyways, I got back from the movie at like 9:30, and ended up just cleaning for 3 hours without realizing it. But I kept bouncing from one area to another, and couldn’t focus on one particular thing. My mind was everywhere. I was pacing a lot too. And now I’m not even tired. I’ve had this happen in the past, and it normal only lasts a few hours to a day, and then I’m back into depression again. So I can’t be hypomanic or manic. But I feel like most people don’t do this. What is this? I still kinda can’t focus on one particular thing, and really just want to run around, but it’s like 1am here. My mind is restless right now. Any ideas? Thanks.

Hi Nike, I can relate to what you have said. The urge to clean, imo, is our mind's attempt to establish control on things. Since you had missed school and spent time on a movie, may be unconsciously you wanted to take charge of things again and the easiest way to do that is to start cleaning.

As for not being able to finish one thing and starting another, this is the struggle of a perfectionist which (imo again), is amongst the causes for depression. I think you are trying to arrange/clean everything perfectly but then there are no perfections in real life, so you end up quitting on one thing and then start another.

Unfortunately, I can only try to analyse the situation based on my own experience and understanding but I don't have much advice on how to cope with it.

Hi, so I’m bipolar too and I think what you said is really interesting because I’ve had episodes where I’ve had horrible depression and at the same time I’ve had a lot of energy and I think that maybe sometimes depression can really come from outside sources so maybe your body still has the manic chemicals in your head. But they’re out side factors that are causing you to be depressed. I know that I’ve had both going on at the same time I’ve had episodes where I was literally crying every day but still going to school work taking classes for recreation doing yoga just all over the place but I definitely agree that you can have episodes within each other

I did mention this to my doctor, but she didn't really seem concerned at all. But I think she is getting more and more concern about me having bipolar disorder, as I have atypical depression, which I have read is more common in people with bipolar disorder, I'm treatment resistant, and I've had a psychotic episode (for one day, but). She hasn't out right said that she is looking for bipolar disorder, but she has been asking questions related to bipolar disorder, so...

I haven't felt that restless and good since. But it was like for 1.5-2 days, so I don't really know. I know they are looking into major depressive disorder with short-duration hypomania. It's in the DSM-V. So I guess there is evidence of people who have hypomania for a few days. I guess I just have to wait and see...

Thanks for your response.