Why do I enjoy marijuana so much?

I have been partaking in marijuana since college, and I believe it has not interfered with my ability to live a productive life. There are many times that I wonder, why do I need this drug, am I avoiding something or wanting to escape? I love my life and am very fortunate with everything that I have accomplished, even when times are rough I make it through keeping my head up. I know marijuana is now legal, and my brain is telling me it is ok, but I still feel guilty some times. I really look forward to it when I have the time to be able to set aside and not have to be responsible for anything or anyone. Am I in denial about my usage? I seem to not be strong enough to stop and was wondering if anyone else has this difficulty?

Thanks for the feedback!

To be honest, it sounds like you just like the feeling weed gives you, which is the reason why half the world likes it too. I mean, I'm not a psychologist but I think the reason you don't stop smoking it is because you don't really want to. Am I right?

I get the feeling though, that you might be worried that you're an 'addict' that you might have an addiction problem. But seriously, going by what you've written here, you sound responsible in your use and that it's not effecting your life in adverse ways - which is the case for most smokers.

I like to have a little joint now and then, but have no intention, at all, of stopping. As I've always said - you have to have some pleasures in this life.

Ahh, thanks for this, just made my day. Sometimes when I spend so much time in my own head I lose touch with what is the best for me and begin to question my decisions.
Yes, I do enjoy weed, and use it responsibly. Being in nursing school I am learning so much more about it and maybe am just double checking to make sure I am under control, which I believe I am.
I am surrounded by folks who are not in control of their substance use, and I guess it is a wake up call to make sure I do not head in that direction.
I find a bit of week and going outside to exercise is the best form of therapy sometimes. I tend to get amazing insight and ideas, all the stress goes out my feet, and come home feeling so relaxed, lighter, and grounded. Cant beat that with sitting in a chair and talking about your problems with someone who does not really know you.

Thanks again!
Gabrielle