Just keep sinking into darkness

I feel horrible, it was one of my worst days ever. I just wishing I could believe my reality isn't a bad dream, and that all of you are real, but I truly believe nobody in my reality is real, that I'm dreaming, and that nobody in the infinite is even aware of me and my pain. It's a nightmare in hell for me! And I wish there was some way of not believing that. But I keep hoping hoping hoping an angel will save me. I come here to MSF out of hope. Every person I pass by on my daily walks I just have this hope they will save me, somehow have my answers to show me I'm not dreaming, that I'm not alone.

@stahrgeyzer I am sorry that you are feeling so isolated and hurting.

I cannot save anyone even myself. I can have compassion for all the people suffering in the world. Everyone is suffering. We all want to be happy and free of suffering.

I am not sure this would work for you, but I get moments of respite from my suffering when I reach out and help others. Sometimes I just say hello to someone at the grocery store or someone I pass on the street that looks kind.

I volunteer here at MSF and answer posts of people and anyone can do that. By helping others my awareness of my own distress is less. Or at least it seems that way to me. For me it is worth a try.

Hope you find support. @CANDC

I'm very certain the answers you find within yourself will be as good as anything anyone else can tell you brother. In fact your experience and knowledge of life holds the key. Have faith and power on, come what may ((hugs))

Good post. Hugs and respect to all in this thread

I also agree with this.

Also, I would like to add what I'm sure you're also aware of (as I also notice your intelligence etc)... some, including some ''Specialists'' have crap/worse than useless/actually harmful ''answers'', sometimes those very same people who think they have some sort of Superior knowledge or personality (Not anyone in this thread )