If you reviewed the past year of your life, what would you see?

I've strugged with loads of things this year, but I am glad to say that this wasn't my worst year, in spite of the horrible things that happened, loss of spouse's job, death of a parent (mother), etc.

I am thankful that my son was able to get into the college he wanted and that we are all relatively speaking, healthy AND I haven't been in a psychiatric hospital in at least 17 years...so that's good, too.

I am quite sorry about these horrible things. That's too much for anyone. I am hoping that 2011 is a good year for u.

This past year I went from being devastatingly lonely from 37 count 'em 37 years alone, to meeting the man of my dreams and finally beginning to understand what love is!!!!!!!!!!!!

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The year 2010 that would have been plenty full with mothering, grad school, full time work and part time private practice. Those are the background for the year. The historic events were 1) hunting for and finding a more affordable apartment for myself and the one child who remains at home, 2) replacing that home and three cars lost in the flood of May 2nd - just 12 days after moving into the condo that got flooded, 3) receiving the most consistent support and connection I've ever experienced from the man I love, 4) transferring from working with adolescents full-time to the adult women's program to help my schedule be more sane, 5) watching my daughter deal with being assaulted then ignored by someone she loves and watching her be courageous enough to testify to it in hopes that he would get some help, 6) many hours of daily prayer and meditation, 7) attended first meditation retreat, 8) survived and actually had to help plan and carry out a large layoff at work, 9) said goodbye to my mother who died in November, and 10) allowed my heart to open wide for the first time and even though my loved one is unavailable at this time due to a relapse into illness, I wouldn't trade my open heart for anything.
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(((((((EVERYONE,EVERYONE))))))))...May blessings and healing fall down like rain....and peace fill all the empty pockets surrounding you.March on ...warriors of life...you are stronger and more beautiful than you can know!!!!! ~WO.olf~

Through God, the love of a friend, PC, and support team, through all the pain and terror, facing the past, falling and getting back up, walking through and not just around, reaching within as painful and scary as it is, reaching out when I thought I never could, hiding and shutting down, being attacked but not broken, finding my tears, realizing there is a grey area in all the black and white that always was, through belief in my system and beginning belief in myself------I have found that I am stronger than I ever thought.

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I would see the trust that I've gained in my mental health professionals over 2010. The first step I took was consenting to medication in early Feb, and then I learned to trust my staff with some of my more painful p arts of my past, and their consequences (ie. the DID).

a complete waste of my time and that of everyone in contact with me on a so called caring professional level.
I am no further forward than I was this time last year.
still no definite dx, still no help still no adaptions, still bumping downstairs, still having to fight to the death for everything and still having to do everything myself, still seing those not as bad as myself getting everything handed to them on a plate!!!!
oh well this year can't possibly get any worse or could it????

((((((((((((YELLOW))))))))))))Bless you in this new year!

Good question! It is a lot better in the second half of 2010 than in the first half. I feel like I'm about to repeat some mistakes though. At least I know that.

if i reviewed / looked back the past year of my life, what would i see?? in one word, FAILURE..... 2010 was not my year, but I am still happy cause that's the year i found PC and i am glad that i found PC! but other than than, my 2010 can be summed up as "FAILURE"

Glad u found p.c alot of people care for u here jolly~W~

What a wonderful year it's been. Never expected it to be as good as it ended up being, but there's no getting around it, it's been the best year that I have had in a very very very long time.

The year started off slow, spring came & I had promised myself to get a few projects done around the farm that I didn't get done except for fixing my garage door roller but while doing that, something else ended up our of adjustment & still can't close my garage door automatically.....but while having the garage door open, I gave my garage to the wrens who had their spring family in the safety of my garage.

Started trail riding with my friends & we spend many wonderful days trailing through the country on horseback.....ah, even with a few falls off the horses, I never had any serious injuries & at my age, that's what we call a miracle. Enjoyed helping with the 4-H kids & their trail riding along with just enjoying the peaceful freedom of going out in the country & just getting lost in all the beauty.

This year, being my third year in my new home, I have several different groups of friends. We have a group of women that just enjoy getting together & riding once a week & having a pot luck lunch....the friendships have grown over the years we have been doing this. We also have another group that includes everyone (not just women) who do riding & also volunteer work in the back country areas of riding. Most of us who are in both groups & the social & horse educational things that we do is absolutely wonderful.

I have another person who loves horses, but because of health issues along with her age (92), isn't able to ride anymore....but we started getting together on Sunday afternoon's & it became my most looked forward day of the week. She would cook one week & I would make dinner & take it to her house the next week. Sharing this time with this friend gives a wonderful meaning to life.

I have another group of friends who are part of a women's Bible study that I belong to. There is one lady who has ended up being a very close friend also. We don't get together as often as we would like because of the distance & I'm always running out of gas by the end of the month thanks to the gas guzzling truck of mine. We enjoy going out after our Bible studies & also enjoy just visiting & having a chance to talk & talk & talk. The joys of finding someone who has the same crazy schedule of a day as I do (meaning NO SCHEDULE at all). Can end up calling or getting a call at midnight because we know each other definitely isn't in bed.

I can also say that this year I have found a wonderful church to attend. It's a small church, but all the people have made me feel so very much at home & it's wonderful to be able to be involved with them in the church activities, the Bible studies at this church & they have a women's group that is also active in helping out in the community. Most of them own farms very close to my farm.

This is the first year where I have felt so accepted by everyone in everything that I am involved with.

My daughter is on facebook & it's been great having more of a chance to chat with her when she finds me or I find her on there. It's drawn us closer just because she's not a "phone call" sort of person.

On top of all of these things, the huge number of hours that I volunteered at the horse park doing the flower decorations for the World Equestrian games brough me in contact with a whole new group of wonderful people who are the core group for decorating for the Rolex 3 day event that goes on at the horse park every April & they definitely invited me back to be a part of that each year. Not only was it so much fun helping with the floral decorations for the World Equestrian games, but the experience of being there around so many awesome horse people throughout the world had to have been the most exciting time of my whole life. It was like being in horse heaven.

It will definitely be hard for any year to be as good as this last year has been, but it's good to know that I can have a wonderful year even through all the crazy hassle things that have hit....like the broken automatic garage door, the leak in the hose going to my toilet, having to buy new tires because I kept getting flats in my old ones & I still have a noise in my truck that seems to be a serious problem that they can't seem to find, go through small claims & get the judgment & still have to fight to get my money.....all the good has so far out shined anything bad that has happened

Life is so good.....even when dealing with things that used to make me angry with my husband (who I left 3 years ago) doesn't make me feel angry anymore.....I have finally been able to distance those emotions....I still feel a disappointment in that he just doesn't get how to be a responsible person.....but it doesn't make me fell angry anymore......nice to shed the one emotion that he used to bring out in me & have it replaced with a peaceful feeling.

Ah, LIFE IS GOOD & God has been a huge part of helping me figure out about life & helping me feel good about my life & bring the wonderful people into my life. The first time in my life where I have had true friends to enjoy life with. This year has been absolutely the most wonderful year I have ever experienced in almost my whole life time.

two major surgeries, one bought of serious depression, finally finding the right medication that worked and my son growing so far with his ADHD.

Feeling very scared and paralyzed from recovering from 2009. 2010 was spent in fear and hiding for the most part.,