If you reviewed the past year of your life, what would you see?

If you reviewed the past year of your life, what would you see?

Desperation ... and then the very tiny beginning of hope.

Mostly failure...but I will still keep trying!

This past year ranks pretty high on the worst year in life list. Somewhere along the year I completely lost me and am still working on figure out where I went. However, I have taken steps to find the answers and have refused to let it win. Thderefore, while in a lot of ways it has been the worst year of record, it has been a growing experience that will impact the rest of my years to come

an emotional rollercoaster without breaks

So because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of My mouth.

An awful lot of sitting around, feeling overwhelmed, a bit numb, and rather powerless. But hopefully won't see so much of that next year. Good luck to everyone here for 2011.

I had a year where I had to come off of drug after drug, with the side effects as a result. Then several months with hardly any drugs. Now on a new batch. I hope I don't have to go through all that again. But I survived! There were some good memories as well.....

I struggled and I coasted. I fell and I got back up. I sang and I had a someone to hold my hand. I cried and I hurt myself. I hurt other people and I helped them. I was good and bad. Desperate and alright. There was no great highs, but the great lows were few.
It was a year as most years. I hung on for another one.

i am in the same place now as i was in the beggining of the year

pain and panic attacks

I would see improvement, followed by a deep dark downward spiral that I may not have made it through alive if I didn't also meet who is now my best friend.
It was great in some ways but it was also hell. Let's see how 2011 goes...

Very mixed year for me.

Struggled first half of the year with relapses & a depressive episode.

Got fired (restructuring) end of June, got very drunk and crashed my car in what all my Dr's thought was a suicide attempt.

Went IP for a month and adjusted my meds.

Forced into going to the hospital daily for supervised antabuse.

2'nd half of year high anxiety & freak outs due to job hunting, but at the same time no symptoms of depression & suicidal thoughts gone for first time in years. Involved in all sorts of interesting courses. Got back into AA heavily.

End of year good. Almost 6 months sober. Depression still completely in remission, no suicidal thoughts, got a good job starting in Jan. and had a nice Christmas with friends & will go to a nice New Year's eve party with friends.

Wasted time....tons of learning...spiritual and moral failure.....alot of loss of family.....yep.Many of these seem contradictory to the other....yet they simultaneously exist.>.<

By far the single worst year of my life. Trauma, abuse and disability are hard to bear as a young child but even harder to bear as a single mother resposible for a young child.

Progress. A whole lot of progress!!
(Despite all the loss)

Perfectly put

This year was life changing for me. I finally got the help I needed and got a correct diagnosis of BPll. While I am now on the road to recovery it's hard not to dwell on all the destruction I left in my wake.

It was pretty tough with my gf´s mental health situation causing an almost continuous roller coaster from June onwards. Still everything is unstable and in the balance but we keep up our hope for the future.

I would say a definite emotional rollercoaster. More hospitalizations than I've ever had. My worst bout with depression. On a new med and hoping 2011 brings some much needed stability.

A mixed year. Lots of disappointments, stresses, worries, unwelcome changes beyond my control. On the other hand, I have grown as a person, consciously made some positive changes in my life, and found new friends. I now see where a lot of my issues come from, and am committed to making 2011 truly the first year of a new and improving life!

Hm. I would have to say, the worst year of my life. I was ok, doing pretty well at first, found out about the move, had fun with that, and 3 months ago my life fell apart. For no apparent or good reason. But at least I'm still here. I guess that's a good thing.

1. Joy in work both helping my family and finding a suitable job
2. Unbearable sadness at the loss of three family friends
3. facing and learning to accept final end of a dependent and codependent husband wife relationship
4. Deeper healing, unravelling the onion, in therapy, from a rape and from an abusive therapist allowing for a more integrated me/us.
5. Being able to watch ourselves on a dvd as a whole unit and the our little 2 year old learning she could be safe, thank you therapists and for OEI therapy
4 Relief and joy being in an art group with time to work on art pieces using creativity and having some nice results
5 Breatkthrough regarding family relationships from someone here on PC causing me to be more sane to do service work in Alanon
6. Learning of sulphite allergies and getting help with rumination using my special glasses and CES unit.
7. Gratitude to you here, for Doc John, the leaders, for heart stories, for prayers, knowledge and information and love, in forums, in chat, in groups, and one to one ; to my Therapists ; to Alanon to family and a couple of friends . I want to say thanks for 2010.

Terrible....lost my job, my house, my partner. Cant believe I'm gonna try another year.

Emotional Rollercoaster...

1. Finally found out what has been wrong with me for at least a decade... diagnosis Bipolar Type 1.

2. Lost friends and had broken relationships due to my undiagnosis

3. Made friends and lost who I use to be

4. Said Good Bye to Anti-Depressants and Hello to Mood Stabliser

5. Eventually got to return to work but seem to be struggling in work

6. Managed Christmas with 1 bout of tears and that was it

7. Have sussed out I have an amazing family- despite their flaws

8. Been through 2 Counsellors and learnt some things I didn't know

9. Realised men are not for me at the moment and will in time learn to love them and me for who I and them are

10. Now know I am not crazy haha!!