Going back to Mass.

I plan on leaving in the next two weeks to go back to Massachusetts. I'll stay with friends for a little bit. I looked at some shelters in Boston. They could help me with my sz. I want to avoid Worcester and Tewksbury as long as I can. If worst comes to worst I'll have to go to Tewks or Worcester. My grandfather lives in Wakefield. My aunt lives in Waltham. I have an uncle who lives out on Nantucket(Where I'm from.) I don't really want to go back out there, but I have a friend who is the town/county clerk. I asked her if there are any town jobs available(Not elected positions obviously.) She still hasn't replied. Any advice?

Ackman12,

Are your sz's being treated medically? Just curious what's making you want to go back to Mass.? Is it friendships, family, possible jobs?

Family. My grandfather is dying of prostate cancer. I realize that it is now too late to have a real relationship with him. I blame my father for this mostly. He would never speak to his father because he was under the delusion that he was telling my father horrible things about my late grandmother after they divorced in '73. My parents divorced in '93 and soon afterwards ('96) my mother took me against my will to Missouri. Ever since then, I've been unhappy. My mother and stepfather made me a prisoner in the house. They like to keep me "out of sight" because they say I'm an embarrassment. My pdoc agrees that sending me to Mass would be a beneficial thing. I'm hoping to get into an RCF up there(one that accepts medicare/medicaid and actually teaches you life skills and doesn't have you confined all day.) My father caught wind of this today and he wasn't happy.

I had an appointment with the pdoc. He says to proceed with the Massachusetts plans. I told him I won't rest until I'm back on the soil of my home commonwealth. I told my father that it was what my shrink wanted (he doesn't know what pdoc means), and he saw it in a whole new light, as he told me to listen to what the doctor told me. My T even agrees to this. My mother needed a little bit of convincing, but I convinced her. So, I get on a Greyhound in the next couple of weeks(I won't fly even though I've done it in the past. Too afraid of plane crashes.) I'm pretty happy.

((Ackman12))

I wish you the best in your trip back home. It can be tough to see those that we love become weak and in such pain. I do recommend taking care of yourself ~ emotionally and physically. If you and your grandfather were close, spend lots of time with him. Just talking, looking at old pictures, asking him Q's about things that he misses. Just keeping him company is precious & those memories won't ever be taken from you. IMO, that's precious.

Very best wishes to you and your family!