What did you do today? (Daily events)

Built an empire, lost it, shot billiards with a midget til the rain stopped...No, wait a sec, that was that other guy...

Anyway wound up in a hot tub with JFK Snooki and some girl I saw once at Dorval airport in Montreal...'89 I think. We talked...just small stuff, you know...and then it was time for reason reality and the return to, so I said my so longs and came home.

Walked through my old empire on the way...nice place...the new guys fixed it up. Real nice! A dime well spent gentlemen! A bit tough gettin' out due to me being the subject of the bloody 16 month insurrection...Pah! Nothin' I couldn't solve. John F. still carries some weight and after a few phone calls I was hustled across the border in no time.

Home again. What with the days itinerary I hadn't had a chance to eat, so I buckled into my sup and listened to a little Stan Getz...one needs to consider ones digestion. Stan has it in hand..especially with pasta. Kickin' back now...just a burp or two to finish. Fitting exclamation point to end the day...

Oh...I have NO idea when Snooki got in my shirt pocket. She's staying the night I suppose...too late to get her back now. We're renting The 7 Year Itch. Guests choice what could I say?...well it's good flick. Oops gotta go...the cat is stalkin' her again...

I went out with two friends to Starbuck's. We were celebrating the birthday of one of them. When I got home I went on the computer, where off and on all day I have checked things on PC, played Internet games, and read my e-mail. I've also tried to pick up papers off the floor, finish a letter, and get some laundry done. I read some on a mystery book and am now watching a Star Trek re-run. All in all, it was a good day!

So far, really not a lot. I just cant motivate. I have piles of laundry to do, errands to do and I literally do not want to get out of bed. Not because I am depressed right now, but because it is cold outside, warm inside, and my lack of get-up-and -go is stunning. Kitteh and I are just complete slugs. Actually, that isnt true: Kitteh is just being himself. And I am following his lead

I was in despair an hour ago. I just came home from an all-nighter at the hospital being by my grandmother's side. Came home and got some rest and then woke up in complete despair, knowing I have to go back tonight and knowing that I have work for my job to do. I am living in complete filth, clothes all over and stuff all over my room. So I forced myself out of bed and cleaned everything up and took a nice long shower and now I feel refreshed. Sometimes I have to remember with this damn bipolar my moods change so frequently that when I am in stressful situations I have to try even harder to get out of a depressed state. I am good now, feeling good....

Will head back to the hospital for another night shift, someone has to stay by her side at all times because she doesn't know where she is....

Stay tuned.........

Today I worked on my blog and spent some time on Twitter.

I went out for lunch and watched the NFL playoffs.

Then I went over to my parents' house and visited with family for a couple hours.

Now I'm back home hanging out, spending some time on the computer.

Relaxing Sunday.

Slept most of the day (since I work night shifts), started back on niacin (Vit B3), bought some fresh produce and meat, tidied up my fridge, steamed a large batch of spinach for portioning and freezing, and am now portioning laundry to do.

I went to group therapy and just spoke when asked to. The time went fast, but my public mask is an effort to use. Now, I feel way more anxious than I did yesterday at the same time of day.

This morning was better than 7 previous mornings, just a bit late. I spent time on PC as well.

Special thanks to those keeping this thread alive.........

So I did it, ran off with the White Russian, Sneaky little bastard he is. He lured me with all his promises of a good high, instead I ended up a slurred mess with an alcohol soaked bedsheet, which I slept on last night. Wow. That felt good. Not. Why do we let our selves get so messed up? I talked to my boyfriend last night, he could hear my slurred words. Asked him again if I smoked cigarettes would he leave me. He would. Interesting. I guess I would leave him if he started smoking too. Nasty habit that is. All over the clothes all over the walls. But you know the same can be said about alcohol. I swear I can still smell the White Russian all over my walls.

Life with bipolar. You ain't easy. Am I depressed now? I don't know isn't bipolar depressive too, and isn't alcohol a depressant. Is that why I felt like crap at 4am?

Oh Bipolar you have foresaken me again.....

But I fought you......

I got up and washed the alcohol soaked sheets now everything is fresh.....why the heck do I drink so much knowing where it gets me??

Rest, ice, relax and elevate. Pancakes would be great right now

I slept in til 1 p.m.

Went to a couple of stores, to pick up supplies for my sick bf.

Went to the YMCA and got a pretty good work out.

Then came back to a quiet and lonely apartment.

Exciting, huh??

I woke up at 10 am and had boxing season with my sister , wathced the news and its still flooding everywhere , glad we are safe and so sad for all people at flooding area... and now while iam typing my sister counting how many bruises i have on my body ..she must be bored

Woke up early in pain with my cracked tooth and decided to get online and surf the web. Nothing new, unfortunately.

I slept fairly well, cooked meatloaf, mashed potatoes, and baby carrots, watched the latest episode of NCIS, and am now surfing the net before my work shift.

Slept most of the day, even though I was supposed to be working. Now I probably won't sleep good tonight. Don't know why I was so darn tired. Must have been that awesome pizza I ate that put me right to sleep! Also, it was very cold in my house, so snuggling up under the covers was very comforting. Now I am just hanging out online, watching my favorite Harry Potter movie and waiting to call my boyfriend. All in all a good day, very uneventful

Do what I usually do ... flipped a coin to see if I would participate today. Have to admit, I frequently lie to myself if the flip flips wrongly.

Nothing.

Slept only 2 1/2 hrs today so far and 2 hrs b4 midnight!

Went to bed at about 6 or 7 am, woke up at 12:30, went to work, got off and went for a walk around town from around midnight to two o' clock, listening to music. Pretty much my daily routine.

I got out of bed.

I am so mad at myself. Been drinking a lot lately. Had a lot to drink Friday and today. Took my sister to the doctor and paid for her, so that made me feel good. But then we went to Applebees and I had a lot to drink. Wondering what that is all about. Have a lot of thinking to do tomorrow, and maybe thinking about seeing a counselor about the drinking. Its funny sometimes I drink a lot and other times I don't drink at all. I am feeling the pressures of the job and disability hounding down on me, so that is contributing to my stress. Hoping tomorrow will be a better day.

woke up at 4 am and started sorting my soda tabs, cant wait to start my project ..but ned to wait my father is so busy

did art, drank chardonay, a bit too much. went to the store and bought beads. came home and watched a movie but fell asleep.

Lots of nothing.

Finished reading a book, rested, made a couple meals, watched a couple movies, tried to keep the bird happy.

I found this picture