I guess I better just get used to progress?

...

I kick up a fuss about change....any kind of change...

I am allergic to change...

I am destructive about how I express this reluctance...

something damaged inside my mind agrees with my emotions exactly all the time I get a feeling!

...and so I hide away after spending most of my time apologising to the 'normal' people...

just a tiny part of me knows you are right....

the guilt I experience when I really cut loose?

say my brain tell my words effect my emotions and be psychotic flirtatious!

a one man army I can still be...

and as hard as it is and as much as I reject the things I know my twisted understanding resents with a passion beyond the living...

...thankyou for allowing me to do what I do

dubblemonkey

monkeyman it is good to read this post so I understand how you are doing.

I don't understand how you are doing (or do i?) but I know you're still here and that's good enough.

They tell us in class feelings aren't facts, but it's very hard to tell myself something else. I teeter, is this real? is this not real? I think that I feel anger and contempt coming from others but I'm not sure it's a real thing. I'm not sure if it's not either. Not sure if this is like what you're talking about? I'm glad you're still here.