Daily Comments #7- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

just wishing that this year pans out well and atleast some wishes come true......

So happy that I wrote my final today. Now I can move ahead. What a relief.

Sigh

so I had to get a new swimsuit because the shorts I got before didn't fit
Anyways, I got this new outfit and shorts, they fit....but now I'm like, go to the pool? Me? No way......
Sigh. I got it mainly because I want to exercise, but my back can get very tight, and there's a hot tub at the apartments, ya know to soak in.

Just embarrassed.

But hopefully I can get in warrior mode and focus more on my goal than fears

Should I really discuss my purpose of exposing my thoughts on this thread?

I am already doing this now as I speak with my mind...

I need a medication change or something to take the edge off, i wake up every morning wishing i could stay in bed all day, I feel like i'm going crazy, just took an extra valium so i do feel a little better. I just hope my doc will increase the dosage.

I feel sick to my stomach right now. And I'm on public transit. Dislike it when this happens.

why are cats so cute yet so annoying?! D: my cat once meow-ed to me for her food, and i gave her her favourite food. she ate it. after eating i wanted to play with her and she sat in a corner ignoring me!!!

THIS IS WAR! NO MORE FAVOURITE FOOD FOR YOU

I seem to be in a downward spiral. More pain and less energy. I'm still trying to maintain my regular activities. It leaves me drained and sleepy to the point of passing out.

(((George)))

Reeling right now from what happened today with my ex.
She got declined for a uhaul rental and (of course) blamed it on me and our breakup.
I was helping her move at the time (since we have been getting along so well these last few MONTHS) and she got so angry it scared our daughter (who was with us) and then she began driving like a bat-outta-hell and scared us BOTH.
THEN she yells at me some more, tells me to get our her life (but wait, weren't we just getting along?!? ) and never set foot on her property again.
My daughter became afraid and said she wanted to go to Aunties (I couldn't blame her, her mother was completely out of control) but couldn't cause Auntie was at work.
So according to my ex, the few things that were inthe house that were mine will now be left at the side of the road.

We had a plan....I was helping her move, working my part time job in-between, and cutting her grass, painting our daughters room, hanging curtains...I mean we have been working like dogs all week long TOGETHER and then "snap" now I am a POS and sitting here posting instead of helping them. WTF?!?

Anger....a TOTAL lack of control and, in my opinion, like a tornado, taking out whatever is in its path regardless.

Now I sit and wait for the woman to cool down and come to her senses.

OK now

I'm grateful that tapatalk makes it possible to view this forum on the go via cell phone application. However, too often I read a post and want to hug but the only option I have is to thank.....which.....sucks.....

Feeling a bit blue today. So thankful for PC and the people here!

Also, really excited for my trip to Colorado next week. Glad I decided against canceling

When someone's dog is lunging at me, and barking ferociously, and it's obvious the owner has no control over their dog, the owner saying, "She's friendly!" does not convince me at all. I'll keep backing away, far away.

After yesterdays fun with the ex I just cannot wait to see what she will blame me for today! Maybe the clouds or the heat, maybe it will be my fault there is a breeze.

My misdiagnosis makes me wonder if this statement in the Hippocratic Oath has any meaning: "I will prescribe regimens for the good of my patients according to my ability and my judgment and never do harm to anyone."

Good day today- I made chocolate chip cookies- YUM!

I'm still feeling a bit numb over yesterday. I accept my role. Even at knowing my part, I feel triggered by my 'mommy' issues. I feel, if one wants positive change from me, there's many other methods to communicate with me that are effective. I prefer to have a discussion, than a lopsided chastisement.

I have not been here in a while, but thats because of good reasons. Finally I have found a way of finding that ease with myself and found a way to bring back all the little pieces of myself into one self it is myself, the way I once was and wished to be again... it only required some meds but they done wonders for me and now I got my life back on track and things are going good.

Going to give it another shot today at helping the ex with moving.
I have been getting my arse chewed by her the last couple days....and suddenly she mellows, apologizes for her anger, and says that her monthly reminder she is a woman has begun.
Hormones can be a (b)itch!
I just hope she is done yelling at me for at least 27 more days

Going back to IOP today. Looking forward to speaking with the doctor and getting the results back from my assessment...power is knowledge. I really want to feel better and have a life a again. Also, this will be the first full week of IOP treatment: 3 hours/day, 3x week for 3 months.

I am really grateful for this opportunity and can't wait to hopefully get back on track (after many years of trying to rally and be strong and survive in the face if adversity), I just can't do it alone anymore. It is exhausting.

I've had some of the oddest dreams lately. Not necessarily bad dreams, just weird ones.

I find the nice hot weather lifts my mood... More to come the rest of the week, will do me fine

There are too many people on this planet. R.C. Christian was right. GG

we bought a new car and my husband gave his girlfriend the extra set of keys(I unfortunately do not drive) He mysteriously lost them and can't find them anywhere. He has a past with other women so this is not new to me and he has done this before. I feel so defeated and hopeless about my situation. I don't want to give him the satisfaction of giving in.