Really at the end of my rope (really no where to go from here that I can see).

I know something is not right, but try to medicate it (for the past few years), either it doesn't work, or it dose, BUT-breaks something else (I REFUSE to put up with that). Tried all kinds of anti-depressants and mood stabalizers - all of them, either it was pointless to take them because they did not do there job - or they did the job you wanted them to do, but created problems elsewhere (like extreame drowsiness, excessive coughing, sexual issues, exc).
Problem is no one seems to want to leave me alone - I tried it there way, don't like nothing the doc seems to be able to do - so what's left other than just leave it alone?
But that is such an issue no one wants to hear I give up trying because you are either failing totally, or are causing problems where there was none.
And now I am starting to feel pressure about going to a hospital again - right now I say THAT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. First off I see no point, likely they whould just want to try what already was and rejected, second, after last time I really don't want to be bothered with it unless I know for a fact I am 100% sure not to get some doc that is going to over react right off the bat - they did the last time, and that was somewhere I know a lot of people on a first name basis - and still, so to say it won't or it's doubtful - well - I used to thing so, until it happened - now they over reacted once - that tells me from now on, shut up, don't complain about anything ever.
And really, there seems to be no acceptable compromise with the meds. - as pointed out, either they don't help - or they help that problem, but create a different one - I don't do "trade-offs" so I really don't know.
I'm going through the same thing with urology medication - I'm about done with them too, but at least there, the option of surgical solutions is there......

I know what you mean about medications causing problems, but those problems almost ALWAYS go away if you wait for awhile. You've just got to give it some time.

The most important thing is getting the depression under control -- and if the side effects aren't gone in, say 3 weeks, then talk to your doctor (unless of course they are SERIOUS side effects). Hopefully you can find an antidepressant that works for you! I sure hope so.

I'm lucky in that most medications don't give me side effects -- I must be made of iron inside. LOL

Give it a try. I hope it works for you. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

You sound pretty strong of heart. I know that the drug Not-So-Merry Go Round is awful. I've been on that ride.
I am probably much harder headed & more stubborn than you are. I finally just got off and coasted for a while. I had to take stock, an inventory if you will.

I hope you can find the right answer for you. That is what I finally had to figure out, because I am really the one who knows me best. I have many non-drug coping skills I had to learn to deal with depression because I just can't take what the drugs do to me.

My current drug thing is chronic pain related, and it is just the same: they don't know what will work because everyone is different. So it is the same crap shoot all over again.

But I just keep trying to get better. I hope you will too....

This website helps some, it is one of my tools! see ya around....

Sounds like you're between the proverbial rock and a hard place. I wish I could offer some good suggestions but I don't have any. What assets do you have to deal with these issues on your own?

Sorry to hear you're having such a hard time, RedBarchetta. Hang in there.
I too have no advice to give. It pisses me off how medication and hospitalization seem to be the first two options considered by a lot of medical professionals. When in fact sometimes these things can do more harm than good. I hope you find what you need.

Thanks...You know I haven't even been around for a few days (but nothing all that eventful happened, just stuff like being bugged to go - but when the answer was presistantly and in no uncertain terms "No!" finally they all backed off) - just haven't been feeling too well....
And the thing of it is, really I AM MUCH more satisfied doing nothing - that's no fun either, BUT then everything works properly, I just get vary strong emotions - most complained about by others is anger, but it's actually any emotion - sometimes I might laugh hierarchically for no apparent reason, or start crying out of the blue, exc. But everything works, my thought process is basically o.k., just strong emotions, but able to somehow keep living right through them (not easy but I do it).
Those strong emotions is what tends to really bother other poeple...That's the problem - some of those medications do actually work for the effect you wanted, but then messed with other things, and that is why I didn't want it.
But the situation I seem to have for now is, if I do something that makes others happy, I am miserable. - BUT if I just leave it alone, where so far I am the most happy, everyone else is bothered by it...
Well, I hate to sound like a child - although it wouldn't be the first time I have head that - but anyway: -
This is jut so - NOT fair!