[Pikku Myy]

Right now..... I don't know

[gary290]

confused, mellow, headachy, bipolar, paranoid, did I mention confused?

[AngelWolf3]

I was great, but now I feel like screaming at every customer that walks in the door. I have no reason why. Everyone coming in is just P%$$1ng me off today....

Not entirely sure...I was kinda mellow at work, then went to my ex's for a bit and got all kinds of up, down, happy, sad, dazed, confused. Left there and returned to my apartment and had some really good mandarin chicken w/brown&wild rice, carrots, broccoli...mmmmm tasty...very happy and content now.

[avlady]

Scared I'm catching the cold going around, I''ve been sneezing alot today

ficked/fecked/frigged/flambasted/flibberflubbed/fooed/Phillistined........oh, fine really. If th' ice breaks I can still swim...

[IowaFarmGal]

bewildered

like their's no hope for me.

i can get through today, and the next, and the next, for what?

just more and more suffering.

[kindachaotic]

gutted, finally say how I really feel, then feel bad about it.
why do I feel so guilty, when it's the truth...

[MuseumGhost]

Too early to say....but yesterday was a sea of deep disappointment. ****sigh****

I feel like a lazy oaf!!!

But it's a good deserved lazy...right? Them is ok LB!

Now me...how do I really feel? Really? You wanna know this??? Ok...sit down... *deep breath*

.........................s'awl ok.

[Open Eyes]

I feel horrible tbh. I am trying to finish getting my demand together for my attorney for my case and every time I go near it I get very ill.

First of all my brain doesn't want to deal with going any where near all this loss. It has been too many years of being stuck in this "tramatic experience" and my brain just doesn't want to go there anymore. It is a lot of work to push myself because my brain just shuts down.

Then, I know that when I do send it to my attorney then I will have to meet with him and go over it, and my attorney was never a good match for me at all and he triggers the hell out of me. And I am "stuck" with him and that triggers me too.

I just get so sick to my stomach, and I also get angry with myself because I struggle like this.

Open Eyes

[optimize990h]

Some frustrations related to things I can' t control.

I don't want to get a new apartment, I don't want my house to foreclose, I don't want to file bankruptcy, and I don't want to file for divorce.
I don't want to die either...but all are inevitable to I better get used to the idea!

[Ladyzero]

How about straight up
' I feel like **** '

[optimize990h]

I feel depressed and without hope. I do not know if I stay in bed for fear of doing something bad or fear of trying to do anything because I am not worthy enough.

Encouraged and a little hopeful...i met with my new T last night and things went ok. We seemed to have a good connection and i look forward to going back next week...and to getting back to a regular schedule

Frustrated and really achy, though, cuz of my foot and the cast. I have really been trying to rally, but it is hard to get around and awkward my right side is compensating for the left and I am using muscles I probably havent used in years. Ouch! It is exhausting.

And I am still completely miserable and feeling so angry and hurt and frustrated about work and my @#$%&* %**-+# brother.
!@#$%&* &&*

[IowaFarmGal]

Headachy and not wanting to follow the plan even though it is my plan

[MuseumGhost]

Like doing violence. And that is just not me. Hopefully, time and distance will help me clear my head and heart of this rage, and this new nervousness she's handed me.

[MuseumGhost]

Okay, it's a few days later, and the anger has been replaced by something that is much closer to relief.

Relief, and being hugely vindicated, are both very good things.

[roads]

Fed.up.with.coping

I spent half my life trying to please a woman who is unable to be satisifed. Everything that is wrong with the frickin universe is NOT my fault!

[Hatter08]

I hate how everyone buys into her bull s---. At home she's manipulative, abusive and neglectful then she goes out in public and acts like she's the victim and everyone just eats it up. She's a f***ing liar and everyone believes her, while the person that has to really put up with all of this is the guy sitting in the corner not saying anything that they all think is crazy. People are f***ing idiots.

Why should I have to pretend to be happy for people I absolutely hate?

Hurting But Relieved ...