[Evening]

I know this isn't the right forum to post this in but I need to vent.
Basically I've been feeling craptacular lately, not seeing a lot of friends, having a new job to start that I'm scared I'll lose, etc.
Today I've woken up not feeling amazing, and it's starting to just keep continuing to be that way. I have to do a shoot in the studio where I study and I asked 4 days ago about booking it, then my lecturer gives me an attitude today about how I should have done it in advance instead of today. What the hell is 4 days ago when I initially asked then?! Moron.
Then I messaged someone to say I'm sorry for being a not so amazing friend lately, which is obviously the case since I've barely heard from anyone in a month or 2. He responded back nicely, until he said lack of contact is just as much my fault as his. Well why the hell should I ALWAYS be the one to contact others? Sometimes it would be nice to have someone willingly contact me for once!
Then I went on facebook, and the person I'm supposed to be using for my portrait tonight went on a big rant about people of a certain culture. I hate attitude like that, and I have to keep a happy face for at least 2 hours tonight when I already want to hulk smash everyone and everything I see.
I'm having a complete anxiety attack about going into the studio, because I know my lecturer might continue carrying on, and I know what I want to say back but I can't handle confrontation anymore. I'm worried something will go down and I'll walk out (because it will either be that or crying in front of people).

Anyway, I needed a rant. Thanks.

[roads]

Yeah, I hear you--no remedy for stupid. It's so hard for me to work (with the public OR my peers) when they're being idiots & throwing attitudes at me that beg for some common-sense replies ... that I can't give voice to.

I hope the rant helped. If not, maybe you can comfort yourself with the knowledge that you don't have to be them, live their lives.

When you're in the studio, working with this person, remember to take lots of slow, deep breaths. That will help keep keep the anxiety down & keep you focused. You can do this!

Roadie

[Evening]

I'm seeing my therapist tomorrow to ask about any meds I can take prior to things to help relieve the feeling, because there isn't much more I can take anymore, I've been so miserable with life. Everything had started going so well for me and it's back to how it was initially.

[7Cups_Ann]

It sounds like there are some frustrating circumstances that you have to deal with, people not "getting it". It's a challenge when you communicate, but the message isn't received the way you intended. Also, I totally understand that whole "it takes two" to make good communication, but it sounds to me like your friend was also having a hard time. That can be unsettling to hear when you just want to move on and get back to a good routine with them.

Venting is HIGHLY encourage. Feels better, eh?