Desperate

So I wanted to take some time today to curl up on the couch with a bowl of oatmeal, relax, and take it easy. I decided to take a day off work because I desperately need to do some things to mentally relax myself- I just re-enrolled in college and am doing other things to become self-sufficient again (had to move home this past spring)... but I can't help but hate myself for it. I feel like I'm not doing enough but I don't know how to do more. I know my mother is going to come down on me for taking a day of introversion, and it's like I'm already taking her words and beating myself down with them. How do I stop this? And am I doing this all wrong? Do I just need to go and do things when I'm feeling emotionally spent? If so, how to I help myself to not feel even worse? Thanks, for reading and I am desperately needing your feedback.

Hmmm. I never, ever call in to work unless I am practically bleeding out of my eyes or something. However, it's because they lose their minds when we call in. I have gone to work when I super didn't want to because I was depressed and sometimes it helps and sometimes it makes it worse. I'm not much help for you, and I know about mother guilt but if you need a day to feel better and collect your thoughts...which is worse: going to work or hating yourself for not going to work?

as long as it's not an all the time thing, I think taking one day off for a mental health thing can be a good and healthy thing...

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Thanks for your responses. My work is flex scheduling so as long as we have our hours in by Sunday night (I always do) they don't care. It's more that I change my schedule and I get really torn apart for that which causes me to tear myself apart for it. I am almost wishing I had went to work after the recent conversation with my mother, but I was productive and did some things around the house and for school while I stayed home from work. I thought maybe if I just did a few productive things, I'd feel better about staying home.