[Artchic528]

I don't know exactly what to say. Maybe it's the wine cooler I had, or the fact that I am forced to be my own valentine today, but I feel extra lonely and wistful. I don't know what I need right now...

[Miss Laura]

I can talk... how's your day been?

[mc2ed]

Hello....

I just saw a cartoon...not going to post it here....it was St. Valentine...appearing at a table where people were eating a 'special' dinner.....St. Valentine is holding his own head...Saying hi I'm St Valentine I was brutally beaten and beheaded in the year 269 A.D. I just wanted to thank you for remembering me on this day of romantic love...Enjoy your dinner....

It was gross but it made me laugh....Valentines Day remains for the purpose of making money....and apparently making people feel bad....

I guess everything is perspective...I know so many people who are married that are miserable and are not getting valentines......I write love letters every year on Valentines Day....to people who have helped me in my Life...I don't usually get any...but I know that someone will know that have a place in my world...

Sounds maybe la la la-ish.....yet when ever I get to feeling down...it helps me...to give to someone...there are so many people who are needy.....I hope you feel better too...I am trying to send a cookie...I see you are an artist....this one is lovely...
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[unaluna]

Wine coolers go right thru me! youre a better woman than i am!

Well the difficult day is past us. You know, I even have a significant other and I do get a card and chocolates, but memories of lonely difficult Valentine's Days still come to mind. I can't help it and; I find myself ruminating upon it with each holiday. Even with the niceties, truth be told, I would rather just get through the day as quick as possible.

What can I say that is supportive? I truly find this difficult in this situation. I can offer a hug. I can internalise your own experince (which I tend to do). You got through the day however - yay! And today is the start of a new one. Find some laughter today and try to enjoy it.

[Teddy Bear]

What would you like to talk about? I don't have a valentine either.

[fishin fool]

Hi Artchic I hope you are doing ok.
Any guy would be lucky to have you as their valentine.

[Artchic528]

Sorry I haven't been replying to this thread. I ran out of diet coke and am going through severe caffeine withdrawal. That means I have no energy whatsoever right now.

Anyways, I don't know what I want to talk about. I'm so lonely sometimes. I want a friend and a lover, but no one guy seems to have balls enough to step up and say they want to try and fill that void in my life. Sure, I have two exes. But they dumped me, and the second did it on the phone. He was also pretty bad in bed, but that's digressing.

I feel this starvation inside of me, like I'm starving for romantic touch. Not just sex, but actual intamcy. Sure, some guys hug me but they never stick around in my life for much more than that, a date, a hug, and false promises of calling/texting/getting together again. I'd rather have that though than a guy be a total jerk I guess. But it'd be nice if a guy would, I don't know.....step up and show me that he's willing to go for the long haul.

Maybe I am asking too much.

[Artchic528]

Hello?

[Artchic528]

Well, I'll just keep on talking...

Today was a hard day for me. It started off fine. Then my mom said she was having dinner with a friend and that sent me into a tailspin. I realized how lonely and miserable I was for having no social life and no friends. So, I sat on the stairs for a good hour, staring into a cup of water as I cried. I obviously couldn't just invite myself to dinner with my mom and her friend, but I wanted to do things too. However, I just kept to myself for the better part of the next few hours, crying on and off. Mom even asked if I was okay, and not wanting to be the prima donna I always am, I said I was fine.

Finally, Mom said she'd drop me off at the mall on the way to her dinner so I could watch a movie. I guess she felt bad for me or something. Before I left, I made sure to watch some really cute kitten and puppy videos to make myself feel better and not look like a sobbing mess at the mall. When I got there, I chose to have some Burger King at the food court before the movie as I was really hungry and didn't want to buy the expensive movie theater snacks, and then off I went to watch "The Great Wall". It was surprisingly good, though not exactly historically accurate, what with the monsters and all. Also, there was a group of teenagers who kept being incredibly loud near the movie theater exit, where you dump your trash before you leave. It was kind of distracting, and they drew some nasty looks and whatnot from the rest of us in the theater. Eventually they either settled down or left, I didn't care to find out, and I watched the rest of the movie in peace.

Now, I'm just sitting here, on my bed, drinking another wine cooler and though I sort of enjoyed myself, I couldn't help but feel kind of lonely still. I really wanted someone to spend the evening with.

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

I'm sorry you had a naff vday. I'm sorry for saying I'm sorry, as though it's somehow my fault and I need to apologise for it. xD In any case, I feel sorrowful that people like yourself have miserable days on such a day. Usually I'd feel the same misery, but I struck lucky, although I was still lonely for most of the day, even WHILE having a significant other! lol

No social life and no friends? I was and mostly still am the same way. Living in a town in which you know zero peepole does drag you down. I try to stay busy and talk to people online or on the phone whenever I can. Making the best out of what we have is important, I think.

Awwww. Cute kitten and puppy videos sound nice. I use funny programs and YouTube videos to help cheer me up. I also find getting my brain fully immersed in something that requires me to think really does wonders. When I'm feeling bad, computer code is always there to embrace me. As is my girlfriend, for the most part, but sometimes I need an escape from even her. I'm pretty big on the whole 'space' thing.

Look after yourself.

[Artchic528]

Thank you for responding Ichbi. I wasn't sure anyone would respond to this thread anymore. I don't know why anyone wouldn't, but I'm feeling really pessimistic about that right now.

If you haven't heard, my dad was laid off of his job, so we are going to have to cut any unnecessary spending until he gets hired for another one. Mom suggested he go fishing once he got his ducks in order, and applied at a few places, but Dad says the fishing isn't really all that good right now in the area of Florida we usually go camping at.

I'm also dealing with my elderly grandparents. Grandpa just got out of the hospital not too long ago after having some great difficulty breathing. He used to smoke a lot and now is paying dearly for it as his lungs aren't working at 100% anymore. He's been on oxygen therapy for a while, but doesn't like to use it when he's in bed, sleeping. I guess the sleeping mask for oxygen at night isn't comfortable for him or something. However, I think that, after having to go to the hospital, he's using oxygen at night now.

Also, have that nasty problem with the ants in the pipes, only to have about 100-200 or so pour out of the showerhead with the water when I took a shower night before last (I'm too nervous to try another shower just yet). I guess that'll have to be dealt with before too long. I'm going to scrub the bathroom down top to bottom tomorrow, probably with some Clorox bleach or something. Maybe even dip the shower head in a bleach and water solution for a few minutes to clear it out of any remaining ants. That reminds me, I should leave the doors open when cleaning so I don't get overcome with the bleach fumes.



I wish I had someone to talk to about all of this, not a therapist per say, but just a friend. Ya know?

[Teddy Bear]

I always get asked to diner by my family. I understand wanting a person to be with. I'm single and lonely often.

[Artchic528]

Originally Posted by Teddy Bear

I always get asked to diner by my family. I understand wanting a person to be with. I'm single and lonely often.

Hmm. Loneliness is a *****, ain't it?