I closed a chapter today. It was time to move on.

As many of you know I have been going through what you might call a grieving process. The 'loss' of my former life of adventure was immeasurable. Being unable to lead my once active lifestyle was slowly killing me.

I made a decision today to move on.

I sold one of my kayaks. I passed the torch so-to-speak. My prized possession is moving on to new adventures of her own. May the new owner treat her with care and attention. May her new owner live through her a world of excitement.

[*Laurie*]

How are you feeling?

[Unrigged64072835]

That's a hard thing to do, but good for you.

I went through the same thing selling off my guitars.

[MuseumGhost]

Justafriend...I am going through the same thing, in a way. I am dealing with several grief processes at once. I thank you for having he courage to write about this and to share.

Now, I don't feel so alone in this struggle.

I admire you.

Yes, tears were shed.

But as I waved goodbye - and saw the incredibly happy and excited face of the new owner - I felt some sense of good in that I knew it was going to go on many new adventures. I was relieved somewhat then to know it was no longer collecting dust. It was going to be used again.

Seeing it on the roof being driven away out of sight I realised that it was new beginning for me too. I have recognised that I've come a long way since my breakdown five years ago. I have healed a great deal.

Seeing kayaks on roof racks is going to be awful hard in the next while but I know I had to let go.

[*Laurie*]

Well, you're brave and I wish you the best.

[kathryn369]

Originally Posted by justafriend306

Seeing it on the roof being driven away out of sight I realised that it was new beginning for me too. I have recognised that I've come a long way since my breakdown five years ago. I have healed a great deal.

You inspire me. My illness forced me to give up a career that I loved. I do a different kind of work today, and I recognize that I'm fortunate in many ways, but I still mourn the loss. It's time for me to fully move on. Acceptance would help me to see and enjoy what's available to me today, and I want that. Thank you for posting about your process.

[happysobercrafter]

Originally Posted by justafriend306

I closed a chapter today. It was time to move on.

As many of you know I have been going through what you might call a grieving process. The 'loss' of my former life of adventure was immeasurable. Being unable to lead my once active lifestyle was slowly killing me.

I made a decision today to move on.

I sold one of my kayaks. I passed the torch so-to-speak. My prized possession is moving on to new adventures of her own. May the new owner treat her with care and attention. May her new owner live through her a world of excitement.

I have never gone kayaking but I can feel your loss through your writing. I support your decision, by moving on, I hope you will find other avenues to satisfy your need for adventures!

May I ask why you can no longer lead your once active lifestyle? If you don't want to answer me, I will respect your decision.

Originally Posted by HappyCrafter

May I ask why you can no longer lead your once active lifestyle? If you don't want to answer me, I will respect your decision.

My reasons are lack of money, lack of transportation, and location.

Some have heard this before.... I used to live quite actively outdoors year round. Hiking and climbing, camping and winter camping, snowshoeing , speelunking, and of course paddling. I live a long days drive now from the mountains and three days drive to the ocean where I did these things. I have no car nor money to get there. It was 2012 I was torn away from these things and forced to come live on the barren prairie.

Thus why the acceptance bit has been so long and hard in coming.

Unfortunately it hasn't worked out well.

I've posted in Relationships and Communication under 'let down by friend'...

https://forums.psychcentral.com/rela...wn-friend.html