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“If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. As a man changes his own nature, so does the attitude of the world change towards him. ... We need not wait to see what others do.” Gandhi |
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#177
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We've arrived.
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#178
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Ahh... at last
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“If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. As a man changes his own nature, so does the attitude of the world change towards him. ... We need not wait to see what others do.” Gandhi |
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#180
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People are like stained glass windows They sparkle and shine in the sun but when darkness hits their true beauty is revealed only when there is light within . Elizabeth Krubel-Ros |
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#181
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Well, I had it. I had heaven in my hands. She was beautiful, perfect, everything I want. I should have known it was too good to be true. Never bet against the Pattern, folks. The Pattern always wins. All because she wanted to make spaghetti sauce, and I asked her if she was going to use Italian sausage. How stupid is that? The Pattern has me so ground down that It doesn't even try to put in effort to at least make my inevitable falls amusing.
****, I think I need to go self-injure since tonight has really crystallized the fact that some human beings have zero intrinsic value, and I happen to be one of them. Not like it really matters anyway since all of life is nothing but a farce. |
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“If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. As a man changes his own nature, so does the attitude of the world change towards him. ... We need not wait to see what others do.” Gandhi |
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#183
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#185
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#186
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Sorry, y'all, I was teleported (without my consent, suddenly and quietly, but semi-permanently) to MACS0647-JD. (MACS0647 is a candidate, based on a photometric redshift estimate, for the farthest known galaxy from Earth at a redshift of about z = 10.7 - 11, equivalent to a light travel distance of 13.3 billion light-years (4 billion parsecs).)
It's taken me some serious cash, and some fancy footwork, to get back here. Hugggs, y'all. |
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Man, I really needed that hug tonight. I'm so ****ing ugly on the inside, man, if you guys only knew. But I can only be me, and try to be a better person every day. Thanks, guys.
![]() By the by... The internet has disproven Einstein. Yes, you read that right. The internet proved "spooky action at a distance," or the ability for particles to spontaneously synchronize across any distance in violation of the speed of light. Special Relativity, I hardly knew ye. Also watched A Waking Life, had a bad trip, and haven't been right in the head since. Breaking point in the movie came when a random character crosses the screen and tells the protagonist, "As the Pattern becomes more intricate and subtle, being swept along is no longer an option." Are you @#$%^& kidding me??! I theorized the existence of the Pattern! Long before I ever saw this movie or heard of Sartre or anyone else. Totally blew my mind to hear my ideas be spoken aloud in a movie I never saw. Synchronicity nothing. It says something rather frightening that I could have this Pattern theory and this guy, whom I've never met or even seen his work, has similar ideas that are almost identical. What is really going on? How is that possible??! |
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#189
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I'm sure you're not ugly. I guess Einstein wasn't right about everything. He was right that the internet can be "spooky" as there is the deep web and a lot of scams and such.
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lol I'm still trying to wrap my head around whether or not I'm dreaming this life. Thanks, Richard Linklater. Part of me fears the Pattern is my blinking clock cluing me in that I'm still asleep. How's that for delusory?
Anyhoo, just laying here chillin' like a villain. Gellin' like a--wait a minute! lol Got my yard work mostly done. And tomorrow, I get to go back up to my gf's house! ![]() |
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#191
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Chillin' like a villain, I haven't heard that phrase since high school. Glad the yard work is done. Have fun with your gf.
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Yeah, it's great being by her. It's like everything is finally right when I'm with her. It's just the days when I'm not with her that it becomes hard to endure. Talk about a screaming codependency issue...lol
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I'm glad you like being with her. Codependency, yikes.
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lol I know, I know...it's pathetic, but I can't help it. I'm maintaining fairly well so far, and one thing I've really come to realize is that I am going to have to force myself to see someone. The idea of talking to a psychologist I don't know again is panic-inducing. It takes me longer than most to really get to trust a psychologist, and I think it's more the idea of investing all that time, only to realize that I'm just a paycheck. For me, I have to make a human connection with them so that they see me as more than just some random person paying them to talk about bat-shtako craziness. lol My last one, I really felt was my friend because we'd both been through some stuff and saw some stuff in the same institution, and I had been talking to her for years. I felt that she cared about me as a human being.
I dunno...I'm rambling. How's everyone's night? Anyone watch Stranger Things? |
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It's not pathetic. I hope you are able to find a good psychologist.
I'm doing okay. How are you? I haven't watched Stranger Things. |
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I watched both seasons in a week. lol My gf turned me onto the show, and I love the D&D references. If you haven't seen it, I highly recommend checking it out...
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#197
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Is D&D Dungeons & Dragons? I'll have to check it out.
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For me, it's emotions that always seem to rally against me. Love, schmuv! (Kidding.)
I arrived at the conclusion long ago that anyone who isn't willing to work with you on things isn't worth your tears/ heartache/ emotional investment. Life takes work, no matter what else is going on. If someone can't work with you, they might not be all you imagine them to be. I really hope things stay copa for a while for you, M2W. You seem like a pretty o.k. person. Very bright and really fun. It helps to know how others really see us. Please try and keep that in mind, when emotions run wild, and attempt to play kickball with our hearts. ![]() |
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#199
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Good morning!
Coffee of the day: Monsooned Malabar Coffee I'm actually drinking because I can't find Monsooned Malabar at any stores: Fresh ground 8 O'Clock coffee |
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Hello! I've got coffee for every taste today.
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