How are you feeling right now #3

I'm feeling tired of being at work. I want to be at home curled up in bed.

Anxious this afternoon

feeling calm but not in the greatest mood today...oh well, there will be days like this.

Hey! Guess what! I got kicked out of therapy! Apparently, I make my therapist feel bad (that's the short version).

I actually totally agree that our styles were just not meshing at all. But the fact that she feels like I'm judging and mocking her (which I swear, was not ever my intent) - maybe says she still has some issues to work on?

I don't know. I feel crappy and am fighting back tears. Going to head to the therapy subforum to write, I think. Maybe. But overall, was already feeling bad... and then my day got a whole lot worse.

Especially love the wasted money on this session, thanks. I ended up leaving 30 minutes in because, really, what else could be said? She wanted me to stay and "work through the feelings" but given that she hasn't helped me with any other feelings, why?

Arghghhhghghghghhgghhg

*working on keeping my head above water*

Sorry Guilloche, that sucks. I'm sorry that happened to you! HUGS Kit

Anxious because the bank hasn't called me back regarding the wire transfer. Kit

I can relate. The second to last therapist kicked me out. We didn’t get along. and with my last therapist the last session went so badly and I joked about something without thinking and I thought she was going to call the police on me. I ended up discontinuing services right then and there just for my own safety. I’m on the waiting list now for a therapist who actually specializes in my diagnosis.

Very anxious and depressed this morning

Zoned Out.

I feel really tired,angry,sad,depressed and a bit numb too.I no longer use food to stuff down my emotions,this leave me feeling a bit rudderless when emotions come up,sometimes the emotions are hard to deal with like when I am angry or sad.

Today went as planned,I had a grocery shop delivered and I packed it away.Also delivered were cat biscuits and a patio door lock which I was able to fit myself.A man came from a security company about getting CCTV so I could know if my sister tried to enter my house.I can get a camera linked to my phone that records and monitors 24/7.It is affordable so i can go ahead and get it.I will feel much better when this is fitted and up and working.

I am unhappy right now.I don't know how to reconcile myself to having suffered so much abuse in the past and because of that my life is directionless now.I don't know what it would take,what has to happen for me to be happy.

Very anxious this afternoon

I’m feeling sort of concerned. I just read that antibiotics can cause you to be hungry and pack on the pounds. I can’t be sure but some sites are saying it’s irreversible. I’m not sure if I believe that but in the 9 days I’ve been on my antibiotics I’ve gained 7 pounds.

very tired, worried, perplexed.

*thanks!* SlumberKitty and MountainDewed.

I'm feeling kind of OK with not being with this therapist anymore. I think that I might have been bumping up against her own (unhealed) stuff... she'd tell me that she felt really awkward with me, not like herself, and afraid to say stuff, because she was afraid that I'd judge her. I didn't *feel* like I was judging her... and I told her that... but it came up multiple times.

So, I sort of think this one may be on her. I just wish I had seen the red flags earlier.

I am grateful that she got me to neurofeedback, and I'm hopeful that that will help me reorganize my brain a bit *fingers crossed*

Today - I am SO TIRED. Didn't sleep well last night, and just dragging... ugh. I probably need to work on getting to bed earlier tonight.

Being tired from the moment you wake up is not fun!

Tired and depressed this morning

I'm feeling kind of numb.

Tired and hating my job.

My brain isn't keeping up with what I need it to do. I zoned out driving to the chiropractor and missed the exit, then got really confused about where I was and if I had missed it, or not yet seen it. Had to get off the interstate, find a place to park, and hook up the GPS.

Ughhhh.... brain!!!

I missed a turn to go to the bank for work yesterday and ended up driving probably 5 to 7 miles out of my way. It's not like I don't know where it is, I just "missed" it. You're not alone. Kit

I feel low and anxious and angry and upset!

Overwhelmed right now

Annoyed.

I have all the symptoms that I’m getting my period. But I’m not actually getting it. I’m frustrated.

I feel lousy. I suffer from Bipolar Disorder I with Depression. I thought I was enjoying a temporary upswing in motivation, energy, and productivity. I was waking up earlier (~6:15am), getting dressed and starting my work day. Also, I cut down on alcohol and upped my exercise frequency.

However, all I feel today is anxiety, worry, and a tightness in my chest.

There is a great article that captures my woe:
Do you have small task addiction?
Do you have small task addiction? - Timely

I crave the dopamine addiction from crossing a task off my list, no matter how insignificant.

It's kind of like Lloyd Braun on Seinfeld, who relishes ringing the bell to signify a sale, in the "Serenity Now" episode.

Frustrated. I saw a psychiatrist earlier today and it didn't go well. I'm not sure what I expected, but it wasn't essentially "There's nothing wrong with you. You created your own problems, and it's up to you to solve them. Good luck." I need help and didn't get it, so I'll seek help elsewhere. No point dwelling on it.

Psychiatrists are a strange type of human.I think saying there is nothing wrong with you when you go to them to seek help and that you created your own problem and it is up to you to solve them is kind of abusive.We are here on earth in my view to help each other out,if it were not for mental health care and help I would not be here.I created a problem due to hoarding where I had so much stuff in my house and it was a disorganised mess and I was ill and did not have the physical strength to move it out of the house.I couldn't live their either cos it made me upset and confused and mentally ill to see all the clutter......so I called for help and they took me to hospital and the psychiatrist there didn't turn me away he let me stay in hospital and got me help to go to my house every day and sort it a little bit at a time,until my head was straight again and my house was livable. So you see I created the problem but without help I wouldn't have been able to solve it.Keep seeking help Symbolic and you will eventually find a psychiatrist who knows how to help you and is willing to do so.Not all of them care some of them are in the profession cos it gets them a six bedroomed house and a mercedes car in the car park!