How are you feeling right now #4

smelly (which totally needs to be an emotion)

sitting here after my fruit farting nonstop

Relieved

Pretty ghastly. Needing to catch up on sleep from last night.

Really bored.

I have that feeling of being tired and washed out but restless at the same time,others who know mental illness know this feeling state,there is nothing you can do to get rest and peace,your mind is in overdrive but your body is tired.
I started off tired today but didn't want to be home alone with my thoughts and feelings so forced myself to go see a film,Little,it was called , a comedy.I slept through it couldn't keep my eyes open.After that I went and ate at the pub,hung out at the cafe,perked up but was still anxious about being so tired,having chores to do tomorrow and preparations for easter week.Also I was anxious cos I have to have a hysteroscopy on thursday this coming week.But I did perk up and wanted to distract myself from my fearful state so I went and saw another film,Hellboy.Well it got my attention,I stayed awake all through it.It was a daft film,gory but kind of comedic and it made me laugh and lifted my spirits,it changed my frame of mind and I felt less burdened.I got home and had a long test chat with my niece,I needed support but she isn't good at that I ended up unburdening myself but not feeling really supported back,but she does care and love me,I can't expect adult support from her though cos she is only able to support herself at this time,she is getting to grips with becoming 21 years old and working on her last two months at uni before graduation.It is not her place to deal with her auntie's mid life crisis.She put up with my complaints and me feeling low and sorry for myself which is a lot when she has her own worries,that helped a bit though,and she said she was sorry she couldn't do more to help.Thing is I am always on my own and I will always will be unless I change that.I am the one has to make an effort to get to know people and develop more lasting close bonds with them and if I am not willing to put that effort in,compromise,share,emotionally engage,attach,love,lose,hurt invest,risk then I will always be alone and feel that I have an empty life.That has been the case so far and so it will continue until I say yes to someone and stop rejecting potential mates cos I am scared of involvement.Emotionally I can commit or let people in.If anyone knows why please help me.

@Marylin,

I am sorry you are going through all of this! Have you tried therapy? It sounds like you have a LOT on your plate!

I am tired. I happily woke up a little after 5 AM and it is close to my bedtime now, LOL

Had a migraine aura earlier...turned out the headache is minimal but the usual brain-fog that comes with 'em is there. Simple math only please and no problem solving. Dance contests are right out. Limbs eyes genitals...everything would be at risk of knees foreheads elbows etc. I am not exactly a graceful animal at this point. It's not exactly to the point of putting an eye out while trying to tie shoelaces...but it's in the same aisle. Yahhhhh!

I took 3 .5 Xanax and 2 Advil for my pain. Not much but I’m ready for bed. Also I don’t think taking 6 Advil spread throughout 12 hours for 3 days straight Is good for my stomach even though the bottle says 6 a day is fine.

Annoyed...

Refreshed.

lonely...

Frustrated

Keeping well, all the while watching the storm outside the front door [its a glass door and my work station is in the hall!]

Very anxious this morning

I feel better and lighter in mood than I did yesterday,so feeling better definitely.I am still a bit restless and agitated but will have food soon,I haven't eaten since 8am so maybe I will feel better once I've eaten.I also have to get chores done now cos I slept today and didn't do them!

Worried for the world a bit today. A little sad because of events going on. Feel a little powerless...but it's normal to feel like that sometimes. I have to keep that in mind.

Still anxious

depressed about world events which are then causing my moods about personal stuff to go crazy.

I got the important chores done,I still feel really tired,I also feel so alone and lonely.I made a resolution to work hard to meet new people and form close bonds with people,friends and maybe someone special.

Very anxious this morning

I'm feeling a little better than yesterday. Still having some SUI thoughts though.

I can’t really tell.

I feel wound up and restless,my moods is low and bad,I have eaten sugary foods and my blood sugars have gone high and I am feeling quite ill.Also I am anxious and apprehensive cos it's my hysteroscopy day after tomorrow.I am tired and have chores to do tomorrow too.I am upset,I want to cry,but the tears won't come,and so I feel burdened with unpleasant emotions and my mind is muddled.I feel lost and alone the truth is I need companionship and support.

Content and sleepy.