Checking in: how are you?

willowtigger's getting a depression again anyways

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Doing pretty okay. I had an interview and now I'm eating dinner.

I'm doing alright, thanks. I'm getting lots of little chores done.

Not feeling my best.

Just wondering how long I can sustain myself at work without proper sleep. Got up at 12:30 am for the day because I couldn’t fall back asleep. I had woken up every hour prior to that. Sometimes it’s 2:00 sometimes it’s 3:00. I hate it. It’s only ever on a work night. Anxiety!

I didn't sleep well last night and I didn't drink enough caffeine today. So I'm kinda headachy and tired. But at least I'm not nauseated and my moods are under control. So I feel ok today.

Now my headache is somewhat under control but I'm having a hard time getting warm and my temp is 96.5. This just happens sometimes and I have to huddle under multiple blankets until I warm up again.

racing heart

I'm going to be better pretty soon.

Yikes I am super depressed and anxious today!

I guess I'm okay. No students at work today it's a staff professional development day ...

I said yesterday I was just headachy and tired from lack of caffeine and having trouble staying warm because "it just happens sometimes" Today I have a full blown coughing sneezing fatigue muscle weakness chills, cold. I tested negative for covid. I set up a doctors appointment because I've been sick pretty much nonstop for a month and it doesn't seem normal.

I am not great, by any stretch of the imagination, but I am better than yesterday. So that's progress. Yesterday I was about 99% in distress. Today that figure is somewhere between 70-75% distress!

*sits with Kit to keep her safe*

I am new here. thanks for letting me kvetch to you all. I am just so done with what has been happening. i am feeling much better today. My energy seems renewed. I'm not officially crazy. Just was made to feel that way.

I'm struggling badly, though unfortunately it's nothing new for me lately. It seems like I've fallen about as low as I can go, and I don't know if I can get back up anymore. The anxiety and loneliness have gotten the best of me, each day I crave that one friend I can just sit and really talk to but there's never anyone there. I hate it so much.

I played "am I on the road" in a near white out condition last night. A fun Canadian past time.

My virus bug thing went away yesterday but I still didn't have the energy to get out of bed most of the day. Today I finally was able to take a shower for the first time in 5 days. I made it to the recliner in the family to watch the Today Show. I also got to Sonic too for some iced teas. Not gonna lie though something is still kicking my *** and I'm glad I'm seeing my doctor on Tuesday. My entire face looks like I'm hungover and my eyes look I have Chrons disease and I'm still exhausted. I have the chills again even though I have a hoodie and a beanie on and I'm under a blanket. I'm kinda just zoned out right now. I don't know how much longer I'll make it before I go back to bed.

Today is Sunday for me.....hair washing, drying and straightening time soon. Then going to my partner's folks place for lunch.

Very tired. Plus, I did something negative to my back earlier today.

I am sort of in the zone of ok, thankfully.

Ok. I literally had diarrhea. In my pants. Just over an hour ago. I have no ****ing clue what is wrong with me. I wasn't even sleeping. I was just in bed listening to music and trying to get my chills under control. I had weighed myself when I first woke up and I was 4 pounds less then I was yesterday because everything was going through me too and I wasn't feeling good in general. But this hasn't happened since I was 5 and that was while I was sleeping. I am mainly just super irritated about this incident. My temp has been 96.5 this whole night. I'm scared to eat or drink anything now. Like wtf is going on with me?

Have you spoke to a doctor?

Yeah I have an appointment on Tuesday.

Yesterday I had to pick up my son early from childcare. Cough and runny nose. I’ve got the day off work today to care for him. Was hoping to sleep in but nope it’s 3am and here I am ….