Checking in: how are you?

I’m feeling a bit iffy after yesterday. I just need to let it go & focus my energy on good self care. Move through it.

I try to behave "good" - correctly and neutral, not toxic, despite being

I try to keep busy

I’m still feeling sad, but I’m moving through it because that’s all I can do. I’m grateful for my job even though I feel like crawling in a hole. At least it distracts me from thinking about myself.

I've been a real pain in the *** since yesterday afternoon because of this super bad pain in my right shoulder blade. My mom got me an Icy Hot roll on stick half an hour ago and it was like magic and now my mood is pretty good. Except I'm really tired even after I had coffee.

2023 is shaping up to be another contender for the "***** Year" Award, it will sit alongside nicely with all the other ***** years of the past 3 decades...!

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doing better today. Concerned about the air quality where I am at due to forest fires.

I thought I was feeling pretty good this morning, but then I got up.

I'm in so much pain. I'm trying everything I can and have to manage it but so far nothing is working. I do not want to go to the ER less than 2 days before my procedure. I'd look like a goof and a weenie among other things. Plus I'm worried their going to admit me. I have a book coming today I've been waiting idk. Maybe close to a year to read. I'm hoping it distracts me enough to help me get by.

Horrible...just...horrible.

I'm feeling a little bit better. This week has been really stressful and I've been crying a lot dealing with grief and the loss of my brother. Glad I rested up after my appointment the other time, I can tell I'm improving because I feel lighter with each session.

I’m feeling better. I don’t know why my pms was so much worse this month. I guess it’s just one of those things.

Things just keep getting worse. I can't eat anything. None of my meds work. The book works too well. I really just have to wait it out now until the morning.

my night is whacked. My front door opened on it's own after thinking I locked it and I am scared now.

With a four-barrel carb and a dual exhaust,
with 4-11 gears you can really get lost.
Got safety tubes but I ain't scared,
the brakes are good, tires fair.

Hot Rod Lincoln 🎶

I've been a little depressed lately. I got a bruise that has taken a week to heal caused from falling off of a stool reaching for something high. I'm lucky it's healing. It has rained all weekend and wasn't able to get outside much at all. I'm also feeling a little empty some way.

I made a decision tonight because I'm trying to ease some other symptoms and feelings. I kinda wish I was challenged more in life instead of just "That makes perfect sense, you know whats best for you." But idk. Maybe its just being an adult.

Just having a chill day really. It's all I can ask for.

Hanging in there... sad, thinking about the week ahead, have things that definitely need accomplished, but low energy and discouraging thinking are clouding my enthusiasm and motivation...

I'm just not doing good physically. This morning I thought it was bad anxiety so I messaged my pdoc to see if he had any suggestions on how to manage things. Then my mom and I got in the car to go to breakfast and do some shopping and almost immediatly my stomach acted up so we didn't go out to eat.

But I got my shopping done. So then my mom and I figured it was physical instead of anxiety. My pdocs nurse called back when we got home. Then an hour later I got a message from the office confirming I was indeed still having a response to the endoscopy and anethesia instead of worsening mental health.

So anyways I've just been in bed since we got home and I'm really tired and not hungry but my anxiety is decent.

My post procedure depression is the worst today. I've barely eaten all day and I'm just at a loss. My pdoc told me yesterday it will pass in a week and I'm trying to trust him. But its hard right now.

I'm sorry you are struggling, mountain

My depression and anxiety are ok today. Hopefully it stays that way. Other stuff is acting up now. I'm lying down hoping it passes or I sleep it off.

I’m feeling very tgif today. Any entitled pieces of poop trying to treat me like a human doormat on which to wipe their precious little feet will be treated to a swift & efficient verbal shutdown. Love you, bye.

For some reason the hot weather is making my self harm urges be a pain in the arse